I wasn’t going to write about my chat with Carol about her sister Kim in public, but I have nothing bad to say about Carol, after all, and nothing I can say about Kim hasn’t already been said before. So since I’m not posting any sensitive info or anything like that, I’m not doing anything wrong.

I agree with half of what Carol told me. She doesn’t think Kim has harassed me. She says Kim went crying to her about someone pretending to be her, and Carol believes it was someone else who harassed me and was impersonating Kim. She says she didn’t even have online access for a few weeks. She wished me luck with the situation and pointed out that it’s easy to pretend to be others online.

Yeah, I know it is. But I don’t doubt for an instant that Kim did indeed truly harass me at times. And others. It was too obvious. I will, however, admit that I have oftentimes wondered and even suspected that someone else could’ve been playing around along with her, though I don’t know who. Maybe it was more than one person, too. Almost anyone could’ve gotten a hold of my ask.fm link and so the possibilities are endless. They range from total strangers to old acquaintances to close friends that I’d least suspect.

As I told Carol, though, whose input I really did appreciate even if she doesn’t realize that her sister isn’t 100% innocent, that I have since made it harder for Kim to contact me. I have left Ask and have tweaked my friend-add settings so that only friends of friends can add me.

I told her that while I’d never be Kim’s friend again, I did want to understand what made her tick. Well, she didn’t answer my questions about whether or not she has MPD as I’ve often wondered, or if something traumatic happened to her to set her off balance, but Kim IS heavily obsessed with role-playing. She’s not only admitted this herself, but I’m not the only one who has actually witnessed her obsession with this sort of thing. Others have seen her in action, too.

I also told her that I could forgive what her sister has done to me in the past so long as she leaves me alone. I just worry that she’s too crazy – or at least too obsessed with me – to ever let go. Meanwhile, for the sake of looking out for my friends so as to keep them from getting involved and caught up in her shit or whoever else’s shit that may’ve been involved, I’ve got to keep my Formspring account secret and limit contact and access to my friends and I.

If she’s truly innocent of some of the things I’ve accused her of or suspected her of, I’m sorry. I truly am. But why does she continue to read my blogs every single day?