The fatigue is back in full force and the planes are horrible.

Hor Ugh Bull.

I was up a long time and didn’t sleep as long as I could have and probably should have. I’m just not sure if I woke up struggling to breathe or because I needed to pee but I did get up and pee, nonetheless. When I got back into bed, however, I found I couldn’t fall back asleep as tired as I was. I couldn’t even nap, although I had to lay down a lot.

I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to do anything about the fatigue, since I can’t handle CPAPs. I’m never given problems I can fix anyway. I’m just gonna have to accept the fact that this is how I’m likely to feel a lot of the time for the rest of my life, even though I don’t know what gave me energy for over a week earlier in the month. I thought it was my thyroid improving, so hopefully it’s not getting bad again. Both the thyroid and the sleep apnea are definite culprits as far as I can tell. If there’s anything else going on that’s causing it, I don’t know what it could be. Like it or not, I’m going to have to remind myself that at least I don’t have to drive or work or anything like that so it’s okay to be tired. Driving would definitely be dangerous since my brain doesn’t always work right when I’m really tired. But I don’t do much in life these days nor do I have the money to do things so it’s okay to be tired. Maybe if I tell myself that enough, I’ll actually believe it someday. Worst case is that I have to do things slower and am limited a bit as to how active I can be. Boxing regularly as I had hoped I could do, is obviously out of the question.

Getting used to burning down there every day might be just as hard. I was doing great for most of the day, and then it just turned itself on like a switch. Still don’t know if it’s all menopause-related or if there’s still an infection of some kind going on or stones in either my kidneys or bladder.

Another thing I noticed earlier, although it’s a minor annoyance, is that the toenail we spent many hundreds of dollars fixing years ago is ingrown again.

I’m currently working on flashing the hairs on my left calf and then I’ll move on to the right calf and then do one thigh at a time. It definitely removes all the dark hairs. There are some very fine light hairs left over, but I should never have to shave again. Maybe just pluck a few from my face every now and then although they’re barely visible.

Last night was the Christmas cart parade where everyone went by honking and howling and showing off their decorated carts. It’s nothing that would have woken me up had I been asleep.

Tom is going through some ancient hard drives from the 90s and staying up later because I am. I’ve told him numerous times he doesn’t need to do this but does it anyway. Oh well. I’ll get a little alone time soon enough. I really prefer a mix of together/alone time.

I created a Mia board just for fun on Pinterest and pinned over 100 screenshots I took of her in different fashions with different jewelry, shoes, and makeup.