Here is the latest round of threats, riddled with typos, poor grammar, and silly, immature, childish bullshit which I’ve received at a variety of sites over the last few days. I was tempted to use the ‘block user’ feature on some sites but then decided, nah, let them keep it up. So they send ‘em, I save ‘em. And that’s all the more evidence they’re giving me. Yeah, funny how they keep saying they don’t want to communicate with me yet the only one that keeps sending shit is THEM.

Sent to me on MySpace by Tammy:

“Jodi you have crossed a line in regards to my daughter. I have already taken steps about your so called diary that is full of slander and threats. You have continued to accuse me about sending you to jail. I never even new where you lived let alone yoour neigbors name. You live in ahouse full of dolls and rats, I live in a home full of love. I will be filing charges with my space your diary web site and have shown certain printed pages of your diary to the state police. You are a 44 year old women with nothing but the same insanity that you have had since birth. You are more insane today then ever. Now it is the truth that I will file charges and see you back in jail for harrassement threats and slander, unlike you I have the funds to fly to CA to formally file these charges. Never contact my family again, but you will hear from me through the proper police channels. I will hold you accountable for every slanderous and threatning said and done by you and your jailed friends. With all of your arrests in MA, And Arizona for harrasment, threatning, our charges are extremely easy to prove, because you ae sick enough to print it. I will pray that this Jail time is more than six months. Tammy”

Then it’s Sarah’s turn:

“Jodi, This is now Sarah. My message was not at all rude. My mom did one hell of a job raising me. I am far for being dumb, naive, or even messed up. I graduated high school with all honors, 2 scholarships and just graduated cosmetology school. So I have done so much in life. But I guess that means I turned out really bad. I love my mom to deaf. I would not be here today if it was not for my mom. I change my vulgar due to become adult and wanted to act like one. My old one was not apporiate. I’m am so grateful I ran to my mommy and showed her your message. We have saved everything from you, and will filing a police report with my Mom.”

Wow. Just wow. I’ve known my sister to be annoying, negative and bitchy in the past, always telling people how much they suck at everything they do, have, think and wear, but now she’s a genuine loon! Now she’s full of a kind of hatred and vindictiveness I didn’t know she could even possess. How has she gotten so angry that her perception of things has become this distorted? Does all this really stem from my rejecting her at the beginning of the year? Because she didn’t like what I had to say about her in this diary? Sorry, but just because I say the best color is pink while she may believe it’s purple doesn’t make it “slander.” This is what diaries are for; to express our thoughts, opinions, beliefs, hopes, dreams, pet peeves, etc. If she’s so sensitive that she can’t handle what I may have to say about her, then why read it? And where are the “threats” I supposedly wrote? I’ve had this diary since July of last year. Site moderators watch everything we do on their sites, including this one, and there’s no way I could’ve gotten away with making threats for 13 months if I had been. Our ISP would’ve been traced, the pigs would’ve been dispatched (even though nothing here is in our name), and I would’ve certainly been kicked off the site. Nothing we do online ever goes unnoticed or unmonitored. Nothing we delete is ever really “deleted” either. Detailed records are kept at virtually every site in existence. No one could threaten anyone in any email, diary, journal or social site and not be detected. And if they weren’t punished, they’d at least be banned.

And if I’m “crossing the line” by referring to Sarah as naïve as most people her age are, then fine, I’m crossing the line.

Before I go on to discuss the actual messages sent to me, I checked the laws when I first started publishing my writing. I have the right to use full names because I am not writing for profit. However, I’ve decided to go with just first names and bogus last names unless the person is a public figure. I have done NOTHING illegal online at any site I frequent. My worst cybercrime is saying some things others may not agree with like what I had to say about Michael Jackson being a pervert. That upset some people and as I reminded them, there’s a simple solution for that – don’t read my journal. Nobody is forced to read this and anyone who does chooses to do so of their own free will.

If everybody who wrote about someone they weren’t happy with or were pissed off at was doing something wrong so long as they weren’t threatening to kill them, then no one would be allowed an online journal. That’s what journals are for; to record the good times, to vent the bad, and about the people in our lives, including the ones some of us are trying to rid our lives of as well.

I guess it’s a good thing some people don’t know I also journal at a few other sites, LOL! That’d surely give them a heart attack.

“You have continued to accuse me about sending you to jail. I never even new where you lived let alone yoour neigbors name.”

If she knew how to read then she’d have seen that I never said she knowingly and intentionally got me jailed. It was her calling the cops on me for letting her supposed ex have it for supposedly abusing her and Lisa that led to me being jailed. Whenever we have police contact, they routinely run your name to see if there are any outstanding warrants. And I told her this in my letter from Oregon 4 years ago. Again, we did not know about the warrant because it couldn’t be sent directly to our house since we didn’t have mail service out there. She and or Bill could’ve gotten my address easily enough. Not sure what her not knowing our old neighbor’s name has to do with it, though, but the point is the same. She’s not responsible for our old neighbors using their cop pal to set me up for complaining to the city about their noise and vandalism. But if she didn’t have to go and defend an abusive man, no matter who actually picked up the phone and called the cops, I would never have had police contact in the first place and the warrant would have eventually expired. The only police contact I’ve had in the last decade was when a couple of cops pulled over to ask Tom and me, as we were walking to the store if we’d seen this couple that they were looking for back up in Oregon. But even then, names were never asked for. All they wanted to know was if we’d seen where they went.

“You live in ahouse full of dolls and rats, I live in a home full of love.”

Yeah, and I know her definition of “love” is being mentally, verbally and physically abused by whatever man she may be with today.

“I will be filing charges with my space your diary web site and have shown certain printed pages of your diary to the state police.”

holds a trembling hand out in front of her Ooh, I’m scared!

“You are a 44 year old women.”

laughs You mean she doesn’t even know how old her sister is? Besides, I’m a ‘woman’ and not ‘women’.

“I have the funds to fly to CA to formally file these charges.”

She can come on out any day. The weather’s beautiful!

The rest she pretended was from Sarah, bragging about graduating with honors, as you can see, and how fine a job her mom did raising her. Yeah, that’s why the state was called out a million times to that house; because she’s Mother of the Century. I’ve personally seen her smack her kids. Back when we all lived at my parents’ house in the mid-80s, she slapped Lisa right off her feet and she was barely more than a year old. Had I known then what I learned later on, I’d have had that kid taken away from her right then and there and seen to it that she didn’t have anymore.

Wow, now my “jailed friends” are threatening and slandering her, too! This is so insanely asinine that it’s almost funny. She’s talking about Mary and Rosa who not only don’t know her address but who couldn’t possibly get away with sending threats and slander from a jail or a prison of all places if they tried. If she’s talking about Bob, well, Bob died in 2005, not that he’d have sent her shit. The only other one that I know sent stuff to her was Kim and I have removed her from my life ever since learning of this nearly a decade ago. Now if Andy’s sent anything, I don’t know. Nor do I care.

Oh, and my Arizona record was expunged, BTW, partly due to the corruption the pig involved in my case was involved in. We couldn’t have lived where we lived in OR or be living here if it weren’t. All I have are petty misdemeanors from a million years ago in MA, so this grand record she seems to think I have that’d enable her to do a better job of screwing me is all in her head.

Love how Sarah loves her mom to “deaf” and is now suddenly an “adult.”

Meanwhile, I will not edit, delete or set my diary private. If you don’t like what I have to say, then don’t read it. If what I perceive to be the truth is what you perceive to be “slander,” then that’s your problem, not mine. I will write about whatever and whomever I want to write about in my own diary/journal.

Meanwhile, it is only she who wishes to keep the contact going. I’m going to ignore this nut job and her faulty-wired brood, and forever wash my hands clean of them altogether unless they’re dumb enough to give me the legit reason they say I’ve given them to sic the cops on them.

This is the true definition of “slander,” according to Yahoo’s education site. Oral communication of false statements injurious to a person’s reputation.

How can anything I’ve said or written be “injurious” to their reputations with no last names mentioned? “Tammy” and “Sarah” could be anyone.

I also browsed through to see if I could figure out what it is they perceive as “threatening” and I see nothing. Nothing at all, but some very sick and paranoid people who can’t handle rejection or what I happen to think of them. When they can get out of my life for good and stop giving me reasons to mention them, then perhaps “Tammy” and “Sarah” won’t be mentioned nearly as much.

Oh, wait! She could be referring to when I said I’d want to kick ass if I went to my parents’ funerals. LOL, actually I was referring to the asses that belong to my brother and uncle, not hers. I’ve now come to hate my sister’s guts and wish nothing but the worst for her, but I don’t care to kick her ass. She’s not worth it and neither are the others. That’s why I’ve been staying away.

She also could be referring to what I’d like to do if some of my old perps showed up here. Again, nothing wrong with that or anything else I’ve said.

As Tom said, Tammy cannot hurt me in any way and all I have to do is ignore her. Yes, I know this. And I’m trying to. But she won’t stop sending stuff. When she does she can go back to being nothing but a bad memory. And that’s all she is other than this electronic little being that likes to threaten me in cyberspace, both through and not through her demented kiddies. Oops, don’t want to “slander” them by calling them demented. After all, it couldn’t be just my opinion, could it? grins

Meanwhile, they can keep sending me stuff, for sticks and stones can break my bones, but words can never hurt me.

On with real life now. We sold the flooring I won for $120! That’s $20 more than we expected to get for it, and we’re actually not doing that bad financially right now. No chest pains today either.

My Norwich journal should be posted on Blogger within a week, and I should be starting Portuguese lessons today or tomorrow.

Right now I gotta get my ass either running or riding. No one stays this small at my age without regular workouts!

Then it’s off to hang out with the wonderful hubby who treats me like a queen and with the love and respect that I deserve!

Later…

I meant it when I said I wouldn’t edit or delete the things that are on my mind, or make private my journal.

It is sad but true that some people are totally without compassion. Especially one who had a huge hand in burning me in the past and has expressed a strong desire to do it again. And to hell with how it may affect my husband who has loved, supported and accepted me as I am for 16 years.

I don’t write in this diary to hurt people’s feelings but to express my own feelings. If some folks get their feelings hurt or get pissed off along the way, I’m sorry. But I have no control over how others may react, nor can I predict how they may react. Furthermore, it is not my job to babysit people and be responsible for their feelings or what they may feel. Yet some may still insist that I should consider people’s feelings which is exactly what I’ve done up front in my introductory entry by suggesting that those who are on the more fragile side do not read this journal if they’re sensitive in any way. We all read things we don’t like from time to time. That’s just life. And we all can’t agree on everything all the time. It’s like being a singer. Well, not everyone’s gonna buy your album cuz you’re just not gonna be everyone’s cup of tea. That’s just a fact of life. I also know that for every person who doesn’t like what I may have to say, dozens are pleased with it. Would I have been on the ‘most popular’ list this long otherwise?

Like I said before, if MySpace or this site or any other site felt I had done anything wrong, I would be banned from these sites. So if you get upset because I say abortion is ok, then you kinda asked for it by reading someone else’s journal in the first place. Same for when I said that the way I would personally handle it, had I been that poor lady that got run over by a negligent cop who barely got a day’s worth of jail time, would be to either insist they make him pay like anyone else or else I’d take care of him myself. I know and fully accept that when it comes to writing, disagreeing simply goes with the territory. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have the right to say how I myself would’ve handled this cop had I been his victim of negligence in my own journal. As a writer, I know that not everyone’s going to enjoy my stories or agree with my thoughts, beliefs and ideas.

And that is okay.

I did, however, edit down my MySpace blog because I hate their blog setups. It’s way too hard to navigate and browse old posts, so I chopped it down to just my shortened bio as I have on FB. FB and MS are sucky places to journal since that’s not really what it was created for anyway. Blogger’s the only one that’s easy to navigate, and my main reason for using it in the first place is to have a place to back stuff up in such large volumes. I can’t throw on 250 pages of text at a time here.

Hey, I know! Why don’t I do an entry in MySpace’s blog so I can then convert it quickly to Italian or whatever other language I want, then post that on MD! That’d really frustrate someone!

I’m still plotting my next story, Espressioni. It will be my first story that won’t be set in the US. I’m thinking of having a girl go over there and work in a university where she meets one of the teachers, ends up in a relationship with them, etc. That way there will have to be a lot of Italian in my story and great practice for me!

Currently, I’m 13% through Portuguese 101 with a score of 93%. It’s going fast and easy since I already know Spanish and a lot of Italian. The Portugal Portuguese only has 2 courses, but the Brazilian version has 4. Maybe I’ll do that next before I do the French, Dutch and whatever else I feel like taking.

Anyway, I’m gonna spend the rest of the evening just kicking back and doing the usual till I crash, then wake up to whatever new threats will be waiting for me in the morning.