Wow, Tammy must enjoy this journal immensely! And I mean immensely. After all, she just can’t seem to get enough of it. Yup, you guessed it; another round of threats from my dear sister in regard to the nightmare I had about her which I wrote about in my last entry on MD. I can’t believe there are people who would take a dream personally! But before I get into that, I lost another pound! Had someone told me I’d one day be 122 pounds after spending 6-7 years in the 130s-140s, I never would’ve believed it. Not “skinny” for my height, but not fat. Especially for 43. Here’s the catch, though. I haven’t really been dieting or working out that much. How do you slam on a pound of fudge and lose more weight? Tom said it’s an accumulative effect of working out and dieting plenty enough on most days. See, I’m just the opposite. I feel I’m not working out or dieting as hard as I should. It’s weird to have struggled as long as I did to get nowhere, yet now I’m losing weight without much effort. The only thing that hasn’t changed is that it’s taking me forever to do it. They say it stays off better that way, though, so we’ll see. For now, I guess I’ll be here forever, think I’ve bottomed out, and then hit 121. I have now lost 25 pounds, though it’s almost 30 if you count before I officially began this new diet a year ago. I can now shake my wedding band right off my hand! I’m so sorry I got it enlarged like I did in 2000. But if I can be the whale that I was in the past, there’s no saying for sure that the weight will stay off forever.

We listed the Nikita doll on eBay and if anyone knows anything about dolls they’ll know that $149, including shipping, is a great deal for a doll that normally retails for over $300. We’ll find out in a week! We’re not going to drop her price and relist her if she doesn’t sell, though, cuz we’re not that hard up for bucks at the moment, believe it or not. Still, the extra money would still be nice.

Yay, Bendejo the rat is dying! I know that sounds so mean of me, but he was never a favorite being as skittish as he is. I only kept him cuz Tom insisted. Puerco, who’s also not a favorite but is friendlier than his brother, seems to be doing ok. I don’t see any tumor where Bendejo’s concerned, but he’s acting like it’s cancer or some sort of organ failure. He’s losing weight and becoming feeble, though he is still eating normally. It could be worms, though I doubt it, cuz then Puerco would have them, too.

So anyway, the mountain part of our time up in timber country was hectic, the motels were a very depressing time for me, the duplex noisy and stressful, but the house was fun. Most of it was anyway. The street noise was horrendous, the weather sucked, the house itself sucked, and I was as uninsured as I am now, but it was fun for the most part and a part of me is sorry we left. Then again, they probably would’ve laid him off up there, too.

Where the Spanish alphabet has 29 letters, the Italian alphabet has just 21. They don’t do j, k, w, x & y. Portuguese has 23-26 depending on where you are.

I counted to 20 in Portuguese for Tom and he said it sounded very similar to Spanish, though he could tell it wasn’t Spanish. He said he doesn’t recognize Portuguese very well, so he might not have known that that’s what it was. Neither would I if Gloria hadn’t done one of her songs in Portuguese like she did. Lots of ow and soft g sounds in Portuguese.

Ok, here’s the latest from the Drama Queen Tammy. First, though, she’s creating new email addies for each one. This one’s from ufukup, the last one was hateu. I don’t know why she’s using different addies as the IP has already been logged, but here’s what she had to say anyway:

“There is no one in this family that can stand you. You did not decide to have anything to do with us, we all cut you off. Envy you, your fucked up, your pictures of you look like your fucked up dolls. You are a lonely fucked up bitch. If your one friend according to your web page and or any other person that is half normal can see that you are and have been since birth mentally very ill. Anyone can do a background check and see all your arrests,jail time and probation for threats and harrasment to people. You have nothing and you are nothing. If you make any more contact with me or my family, I will do everything to see you back behind bars. I did it once I will do it again. I will show up at your dingyall you have in life trailor and shoot you and put the family and public in some piece. Signed by one of your family out of several of us who hates your guts. You and your queer husband need to go to hell.”

Talk about Tammy with a new twist! Like I said before, I know she’s mean, I know she’s negative, I know she’s a nut. But this is getting downright vicious! I’ve never known her to be this spiteful, and this full of hate. So much for thinking she may’ve been innocent after all since she just went and admitted that yes, she did intend all along to get me jailed for defending her against her ABUSIVE ex. The one who beat her, beat Lisa, raped me with his eyes, then knocked up a 15-year-old. I don’t know if the kid ever had the baby, though. She may not have known about the warrant any more than we did, but yep, her goal all along WAS to have that sister who was always “there for her” jailed for letting that abuser she loved so much (and probably still does) have it. It’s too bad he didn’t kill her. Maybe Mark will take the honors instead. smiles hopefully

What more than likely happened was that it was a spite case against me for dumping her when we left Phoenix. I decided the best thing I could do for myself was to just ignore the whole family and start anew. So I did. I wiped the slate clean of all those who had hurt me in the past and tried to move on. Well, she didn’t like it. She no doubt got our address from one of Tom’s relatives, though I’m sure she didn’t tell them her true intentions. I’m sure she said something like, “She gave me her new address, but I lost it.” So yeah, she was pissed at me for dumping her, and Bill was the weapon. The cops wouldn’t have gone to such lengths to trace the address of someone blowing off steam, threatening or not, from 3000 miles away.

What I don’t get is how she can be dumb enough not to see that the only one who’s done anything illegal is her. Doesn’t she know it’s illegal to send threatening messages? Does she WANT to go to jail? Does she think she can just do anything she wants to whoever she wants? Does she not give a shit? Not think these things out BEFORE acting? Or is she just too damn crazy these days to think rationally and distinguish right from wrong?

I also didn’t get why she keeps threatening me with jail if I contact anyone in her family when the only one being contacted is me. Then it hit me. Duh! Yeah, I’m slow at times. Not that she can have me jailed for contacting other adults, but it’s obvious that she’s worried about Lisa and I contacting each other and speaking the truth about her amongst ourselves.

“There is no one in this family that can stand you.”

Right. My folks are just pretending.

“You did not decide to have anything to do with us, we all cut you off.”

laughs That’s a convenient thing to tell yourself when you can’t handle rejection.

“You are a lonely fucked up bitch.”

Does she think I live alone or something? And what web page? I have like a zillion web pages. And are these supposed to be real friends or just cyber friends?

“I will show up at your dingyall you have in life trailor and shoot you and put the family and public in some piece.”

Ok, I’ll be waiting.

“You and your queer husband need to go to hell.”

laughs harder Tom’s queer? Wow, that’s a first! Yeah, we were laughing at that one, alright, and I was teasing him, calling him queer, etc. Yet the only one who’s ever been attracted to the same sex is me, LOL!

Later…

This just came in from “Queer:” If only you knew what will be in your future. You sick lying bitch. You will never have the last word. Watch OUT.

So let me get this straight – she gets up every morning and runs to check out my journal? Is that what she’s been doing every day? Sitting there waiting for me to say something she doesn’t want to hear? Hmmm… interesting for someone who’s supposed to hate me, wants to kill me, wants to see me jailed, and wants to make damn sure I’m not getting the last word. Not sure why the “last word” would be so important to someone who could hate me that much, but I assure you she’s doing anything but making sure I get the last word. All I do know is that she’s obviously having a blast sending me these threats and insults and that there’s nothing to “watch OUT” for because my future doesn’t include her any more than it already unfortunately does in the form of digital threats. I can handle that, though. I would’ve slapped this thing private if I couldn’t.

Anyway, I don’t know what happened in my demented sister’s life to make her this crazy. I’ve never seen her act this insane before. I’ve seen her get pissed, but never this furious, hateful and paranoid. Usually, she just ignores someone she dislikes. Something had to have happened along the way that I don’t know about because no one from this household is making any contact with anyone in her family, and if she would just start a journal or blog of her own, then she could have all the last words she wants. But no, I would not read it because I would not care. I’m not interested in this drama queen, even though it sure seems to think I am or at least wants me to be. IDK, maybe Mark did give her the beating of her life and it caused brain damage and that’s what’s making her so crazy.

Never in my life have I been physically afraid of my sister. I wasn’t kidding when I said I was in great shape. Lots of strength, flexibility and stamina. I run and or ride a mile or two nearly every day. I do hundreds of ab crunches. However, if I were suddenly alone in a room with her, I think I just might actually be scared. Not that she could screw me with the law, but hell, maybe she really would try to kill me! And she just might not need a gun to do it! Insanity can give you some rather superhuman strength, and sometimes the nuts are the most dangerous of all. So if anything happens to my husband or myself, you know who to question!

Some say I should show these threats to the police, but as long as she keeps her shit in print, the words can’t jump off the screen and hurt me. If she does come to our place, then we’ll do whatever it takes to defend ourselves.

Every time I think she’s gotten me out of her system and is finally sick of my journal, sick of letting me know what she’d like to do to me, and just sick of me altogether, she hits me with a new round of threats and insults. It’s kind of funny cuz it’s so childishly asinine, but now I’m starting to actually fear for my safety. Before I was just a sick lying bitch. Now I’m dead meat and she’s making physical threats. What does this genuine loon want from me? For me to mark this private? Sorry, but it’s not my job to figure out what SHE wants. In fact, I think I’ll just quit reading messages for a while. Yeah, that’s what I’ll do. She may not be sick of me, but I’m sick of her.

At least she spelled every word correctly this time around. Every single word. I’m impressed! Maybe someone else is behind this little hate campaign that not even she knows about. I suppose anything is possible. I can’t see the person behind the words, but if anything happens to me the cops can trace the IP.

I agree with those who say she’s just blowing off steam cuz she doesn’t like what I have to say about her, even though I don’t get why she reads this if she’s got such a problem with it, due to the fact that if you were going to harm someone you wouldn’t usually give them warning and leave whatever crime you planned to commit in print. So regardless of the fact that I myself haven’t broken any laws, her leaving these messages and then coming out here to either try to legally screw me or kick my ass, would really make her look bad. I’m surprised she’s not harassing me on Twitter, Blogger and other sites, too. Then she could look even worse!

As always, though, opinions are like assholes and everybody’s got ‘em. So if you don’t like what I have to say you’re always welcome to click on out of this diary.

Oh, I got a kick out of how everyone said I oughta plaster this diary with lesbian porn since she hates gays. First off, she’s not worth the extra effort. Secondly, she hates everyone, including Mexicans, even though one of her daughters is half-Mexican. This is ok, though, for I myself have no discriminations. I hate everyone equally, LOL!

Later…

Is anyone else being stalked online by their own sister? I still can’t figure out if she’s trying to get me to mark my diary private or if that’d pissed her off even more. I mean, she must enjoy reading this somewhat since she keeps coming back for more.

I could set it private and deactivate other accounts elsewhere, but I don’t want to give her what she wants if that truly is what she wants.

Anyway, I’m kind of bored right now waiting for the laundry to finish so I can go to bed.

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