This should be Mary’s last month in “captivity.” Last we knew the jury recommended Monster get the death penalty, but the judge has to agree with it, of course. And if he has any sense, he will, even if it’ll be a decade or so before his ass is fried.

If anyone’s been holding a record for unanswered prayers lately, it’s me. I’ve totally given up on that. Nothing up there cares. Nothing. This means we still haven’t sold the flooring I asked that He help us sell so we don’t have to split the rent up yet again, even though Jesse says he understands times are tough. It’s just that Jesse probably hasn’t a clue what it’s like to really struggle, and I worry he’s going to get sick of the split payments. Always having money can spoil you like that and make you less sensitive to those who are struggling. Well, he’ll just have to wait either way. We can’t pay him with money we don’t have.

All we’re getting is teased. Twice we got calls, one of which Tom agreed to drop the price all the way down to $100, but no, even that wasn’t good enough. You gotta literally give to people these days or else they’re not interested, and I don’t think it’s all due to the economy. I think people are just selfish and greedy and feel they’re entitled to whatever freebies they can get, no matter whose expense it may be at.

As for the IRS, we’ve already agreed to blow them off. Not that they won’t help themselves to any future refunds we may one day have the luxury of being owed. But as far as I’m concerned, if they can afford to give other countries millions of our dollars, then they don’t need us to pay them what we don’t have to pay them in the first place. Meanwhile, I’ve totally quit sweeping and not just because I stopped winning. I stopped because I wouldn’t want to win big even if I could if it’s just going to cost us hundreds of dollars in taxes like the 9K did. So unless it was so much money that we could pay the taxes easily enough, I don’t want to win big.

I hope Tom is right – he BETTER be right, I told him – because if anyone should know you can’t believe everything you read, it’s us. Even so, he’s 99% sure we’re going to get Medicaid in a few months. Why? Oh, because we’re one of the less deserving in life, one of God’s chosen ones to be poor, that’s why. And we’d save a lot more at the dentist on Medicaid than we would on a sliding scale fee.