Aw, no views from Christine yesterday, but I got a message from Maliheh. It’s funny cuz in regards to my telling her of my plans to try to publish a book on Kindle, she said, “I hate to tell you so, but I will anyway. I told you months ago about seeing if they’ll buy your stories, but am glad to hear you’re going to go for it. You deserve good.”

But she told me it was Kendall, not Kindle, LOL, so I looked up Kendall and found they only published educational material.

I was worried at first that being in the gay/lesbian genre meant my chances of sales might be lower, but then again, there’s less competition in that area. If you look up just romance, you’re gonna get millions of books as opposed to if you look up lesbian. So hopefully, since there are fewer books to choose from in the lesbo category, that means my book (if it ever makes it there) will have a better chance of being bought. I still don’t expect to make much money either way, but that’s not the point. Money’s nice, yes, but it’s important to be doing what I love to do.

I just re-read PDP’s email to me and they said to give them an extra month or two to give me a decision on Evil Amongst the Evergreens. That might not be till around May, though, so I might submit Forget It first, even if it’s half the size of Evil. I renamed Rainbow Dreams to Forget It because Rainbow Dreams may’ve been a pretty title, but it just wasn’t appropriate for a murder mystery where a woman suffers amnesia after witnessing a murder.

I’ll have to decide whether or not to submit Forget It, wait to see if they reject Evil, or just go ahead and assume they’ll reject Evil and just submit it since it’d probably make more money on Amazon than with PDP anyway. Better yet, if I’m not going to wait on PDP, I should submit No Escape. That one’s slightly bigger than Evil.

Then again maybe not. I just skimmed through No Escape and it screamed AMETURE! at me big time. So maybe I ought to just concentrate on fresh stuff only. No Escape was written in 2005 and I’ve learned a lot since then.

I’ve been so focused on writing that I’ve been neglecting my workouts. sighs As much as I hate numbers, my life is all about math - trying to add to our income, subtract from my weight, and divide my time. At least Tom and I don’t have to worry about multiplying.

Every now and then I still get messages complimenting my old journal and asking that I follow theirs, too. Yesterday, however, some sucker that saw my win list wanted to know if I’d be willing to share a certain DVD. Sorry, but I sold it years ago!

Later…

Now this is interesting. I realized I looked up the wrong name when trying to find Christine’s diary on MD – which I assumed she had – because I had been looking for Christina. Today I looked up the correct name and when I found one that said she was a year younger and mentioned professors who think they’re little Gods even though she’s just as smart, I put two and two together and sent her a message.

I also looked up her username and found that she just created a MyOpera account within the last week. It’s interesting because I mentioned having a dream in my blog (I didn’t really) and said: While I’m on the subject of cyber friends and silent followers, I sometimes dream of the things I’m thinking of as I fall asleep. I was thinking of how some fellow MyOpera users and I were making up “identities” for our more quiet observers we don’t know well and ended up dreaming of one of them. I do know this person’s name, so I will not mention it. They spotted me coming out of a store here in town, recognized me and came up and introduced themselves. I was stunned and asked how they knew I was The Girl in the Mirror with the MyOpera blog, and they said they’d seen pictures of me. I, however, didn’t recognize them because I’d never seen a picture of them before.

So we talked for a few minutes and then they told me they “felt so connected to me through my candid blog that they almost loved me.” I wasn’t sure if it was a joke I should laugh at or if I should just be flattered. I decided to do both. And so we ended up spending the day hanging out together, LOL.

I know it’s not cool to make up stuff, but lately I’ve been so drawn to this mystery woman and curious about her. I was hoping it would cause something to happen. Then today I said: I’m surprised no one’s asked me about the dream about the “silent follower.” Is it a man? A woman? What do they look like?

I’ll just say their appearance kept changing in the dream. One minute they were average height with dark hair and eyes and a little on the heavy side. The next they’re tall, slim and blond with light eyes.

Well, in reality the identity I gave her in my mind was mixed and obscure at first, but then for some reason, she settled on being a blond in my mind’s eye, even though blonds aren’t usually my thing. I may’ve come to be less picky with age, but still usually go for dark eyes and hair.

I only found one picture of her (on MyOpera), where I also messaged her, and wow! Just wow. She’s stunning for a 43-year-old, chubby, light-eyed blond girl with side-parted hair just below her shoulders. I’m impressed. Can’t tell what her height is. She’s sitting in an office chair, and judging by where the back of it is relative to herself, she may be on the short side, too. She’s not as good-looking as Nane, but she’s close. Real close. It’s amazing how much she looks like what I envisioned her to look like, especially in the face.

She set up her MyOpera account on the 2nd. There’s no blog yet and she doesn’t have the ‘about’ section set up yet either. No friends, no nothing.

I was sure to tell her that since she hasn’t befriended me, it must be for a reason. Therefore, if she wishes to remain a “silent observer,” she’s welcome to do so and I will respect her wishes.

Anyway, we sure do have a lot in common based on the 27 journal entries she wrote on MD from July 2009 - July 2010. She’s from Nova Scotia, Canada, speaks French, has lived in Chicago, has a 1-bedroom apartment, and I guess her job is mostly keeping records at the university, though she also mentioned training and something like that.

She has a boyfriend who has two preteen boys, but no kids of her own. She said a part of her will always be curious and regretful that she didn’t have a child, but she wants to do things like travel and write a book.

I don’t know what she writes, but her journal entries, although not the greatest of writing but not bad either, suggest she is smart, intuitive and has a lot of potential writing-wise.

She seems to be very aware of herself, her surroundings, those around her, and how she feels and what she wants in life. She feels fat, old and ugly at times, but knows she’s not bad for her age and can even be beautiful-ish when she’s thin. Well, she sure looks good to me. I also have one of my feelings that she may not be perfectly straight, but sort of like Nane who had a one-time encounter with a woman, liked it, but prefers men.

Anyway, I messaged her on both journal sites and requested to add her as a friend on MyOpera, so we’ll see if I hear back from her. I think I will, though I’m getting too tired to stay up much longer and wait for a reply. I don’t know how “close” we’ll become as friends, but it will be interesting, different and even nice to start a friendship with someone who already knows just about everything there is to know about me since I’m such an open book.