How are you feeling now?

Slightly bored but expected to survive.

Would you say you’re satisfied with your life?

I just stubbed my toe and spilled my coffee. Now that’s what I call satisfaction.

Are you experiencing any distress right now?

A spider ran over my foot earlier when I was in the bathroom. That always calls for at least a little distress.

Are you the critical type?

You bet. :)

Are you the calm type?

LOL, get real!

These are just some of the same damn questions that appear on almost every single survey I take these days.

On the bright side, I’m having another painless day. So far anyway. When I’m in pain I want to deal with the dentist first, but when I’m not I want to move first and get out of here this summer as planned. I know it will be just as barky as this place is and maybe even worse, but this place is starting to feel like a prison to me even though it’s not a bad place. I’m just so sick of being cramped in here and I’m really, really missing living in a real house. I hate being so damn indecisive. It’s sad but true that pain is all I’ve ever known for most of my life and that I just wouldn’t be myself without it. Most days I hurt and that’s what I’ve become accustomed to even though it’s no fun. I also wonder if something up there feels I deserve to suffer for some reason, and if it does, getting my teeth taken care of won’t save me. I’ll just be given some new problem instead. I wish it were as easy to decide on as making the $60 scented oil sample purchase that I made earlier. It was actually an $80 order, but I had nearly $20 in credit for doing product reviews for them. So now I’ve got 125 perfume vials on the way!

The only uncool thing going on right now, aside from all the uncertainties in my life, is that Tom’s been pretty run down lately and seems to get congested after eating. I just wonder if it’s anything to worry about. I hope not because July’s a long way away if he needs to see a doctor, and there are still no guarantees we’ll even have insurance then.

Also, the dogs are going crazy tonight. Yeah, that little prick just doesn’t give a damn about anyone around here, not even his own renters. He doesn’t usually take off on Wednesday nights, but seeing how it’s been quite a circus up there for over an hour now, I’d say it’s going to be an all-night thing. I just hope it’s not an overnight thing. I really would like to turn off the sound machines at some point and just enjoy some peace and quiet.

Had another moving dream, but I didn’t see where we moved to. Is it just a reflection of my desire to move, or actual premonitions? I guess only time will tell.