Woke up to a nice message from my Ohio buddy which put a smile on my face (it’s nice being called “lovely girl” and told that she wishes I were there so she could give me a real hug. :), and another pound lost. So now I’m 134.4. I guess it’s a combination of my new vitamins making me sleep so much at times, working my ass off, working out, and dieting.

I don’t remember any of last night’s dreams. I just slept and slept like a log. At least I feel refreshed and my allergies aren’t going off on me.

Thoughts.com hasn’t deactivated my account yet, but there’s also been no more harassment from Molly over there either. She’ll start up again, though, if they don’t close the account. It’s just a matter of time.

Wish I had more to say, but I don’t, so I guess I’ll get all this hair brushed out. sighs Anyone else out there stupid enough to go years between haircuts? It’s a few inches above my ass when you pull the curl straight.

Then it’s back to editing my book. I doubt we’ll submit it for publication this weekend since there’s still so much to do, but we’ll see.

Later…

I am now to the point where I’m both in tears and going from annoyed to genuinely frightened of the woman who’s been stalking me. So as one last-ditch effort to thwart this person who has claimed she wanted a “truce” and wants to ignore each other, I’ve set all my blogs/diaries/journals to either private or friends only. This one will be set to friends only by the weekend. I’ve also protected my tweets and Formspring accounts. I’m sorry to those of you who are non-members who will no longer be able to follow me due to this person’s obsessive stalking, taunting, bullying and just driving me flat out of my mind with both stress and fear.

I have tried and tried to ignore this sick twist but she is still contacting me in any way she can. Her latest place of contact was on Formspring after she opened a new account there to threaten me about how much “trouble” I could be in and instructing me to read her journal on thoughts.com. I didn’t, though, nor do I ever again have any intentions of reading anything she writes anywhere. Instead, I just went in and set everything of mine to private there until Thoughts can shut it down.

I am genuinely scared for my life right now and shaking so badly that I can barely type this. How did it come to this? Why is this perfect stranger whom I’ve never met and never been friends with trying to make my life so miserable? I’m practically in tears now! She’s DRIVING ME CRAZY! No one else has ever kept following, spying and contacting me like this after I’ve told them a million times to leave me alone. No one! Isn’t this the kind of shit we’re supposed to get from obsessive ex-boyfriends? But this is a woman. One I don’t even know and never wanted to. I’m so scared right now I feel like I’m gonna throw up. Every time I hear movement outside, I jump to the ceiling!

People say don’t let her ruin my life and control me by going private/friends only, but she’s driving me utterly mad! What choice do I have???

Later…

You can disregard my last entry saying I’m setting my blog to friends only. I am not. I’ll be damned if I’ll let my stalker win by stressing me out and controlling me, thus spiting my followers who are non-members with no desire to ever join this site.

I’ve deactivated or made private those accounts I don’t use anymore or don’t use much, but this is MY blog and I’M in control of it. If someone doesn’t like what I may have to say about them, then they need to stop reading it. Period. As I say on my ‘about’ page, no one is forced to read my stuff. If you don’t like me or the things I may have to say about you, someone else, someplace or something, that’s fine. Just don’t read it and then you won’t be upset by it. I am NOT going to be responsible for anyone’s emotions and I am NOT going to succumb to any threats or bullying. Someone told me that my stalker said their family was at risk. If they are, it’s not because of me. I’m thousands of miles away. I also have no desire to harm, scare, embarrass, anger or stress anyone out. I only want the right to be left alone and NOT contacted by those I’ve TOLD NOT TO CONTACT ME A MILLION TIMES! What do they not understand about “no contact?” That’s all I want. Nothing more, nothing less. Just no contact.

Meanwhile, they have the same right as I do to write whatever they please in their own blog. They can write all kinds of nasty things about me, and true or not, it’s their right and I really don’t care. I don’t have to read it and no one can make me read it. They can also publish things that are already a matter of public information.

And so I will keep my blog public for those I care about and who care about me, and I will continue to block any contact made to me by those I’ve instructed not to contact me that create account after account in which to contact me from, without reading anything they may have to say to me, and I will not read their blog either. For whatever it’s worth, I did not read the legal threats I was told they made to me on thoughts.com. I heard some things about it, but that is all. I only went to thoughts.com long enough to set my account private until it can be deactivated since I don’t care to use it anyway. Blogging at too many places at once has proven to be a real pain.

I am permanently ridding my life of all things Molly and other things I shouldn’t be wasting my time even thinking about let alone worrying about. No amount of taunts, threats and bullying is going to get me to live the way others want me to live. So file your lawsuits and do whatever you want. You’ll never see me in a court of law no matter how many subpoenas you send me, and you’ll never get me to stop writing about what I want to write about in my own journal either.

That being said, I shall now officially close the Molly chapter of my life and move on to more important things. Including those who treat me with kindness and respect. I choose to surround myself with people I love and care about and who feel the same way about me in return. My husband, Maliheh, Andy, Christine, Adonis, Aly, Kim, Nane, Mitch, and Eileen are some of the people who rock my world. And I thank them for it. :)

Maliheh wasn’t happy with the idea of me making the blog or Formspring accounts friends only because she not only doesn’t want to join these sites, but she likes to look in every now and then and says that’d be letting her win if I let her control me like that, and she’s right.

I feel like such an idiot for letting her and her legal threats get to me and cause me to lose nearly a whole day’s worth of work – ugh!

On the other hand, maybe I should be a little worried. Hasn’t God allowed me to be victimized by my own perps before? And clearly, someone with more intelligence is helping her write these so-called legal threats, though I still don’t see where I’m guilty of libel anymore than any other blogger is.

The only mistake I made was first trying to reason with this nut, then cussing it out in hopes of scaring it off. But she’s saying I was going to send a friend to her house and that her family’s at risk. Not by me they aren’t. I’m thousands of miles away so obviously someone else is fucking with her or she’s just plain old delusional.