A journal is like a best friend that you share everything with. You, the readers, are the “eavesdroppers” to those confessions.

2015 ended on a fearful note and 2016 is beginning on a hopeful one. I will be taking my first Lexapro pill in 20 minutes. I just wanted to be sure I waited 4 hours after taking my thyroid pill because it’s best not to take anything too close to taking that.

Thanks to those who have also taken it and given me your feedback on your experiences. It seems a lot of people feel numb, but I’d welcome a little numbness as opposed to off-the-charts anxiety.

Hopefully, it won’t mess up my already messed-up sleep patterns even more. As I told Tammy, the trip may be delayed a bit till we can get my wacky hormones, chemicals – whatever they’re all called – in a more sane fashion.

Last night I dreamed I was hanging outside with some people when a guy came up and dumped a huge bag of Chinese food on us. I told him I was starving and had just sent some girl to the grocery store for me, so I really appreciated it.

The guy said that the guy that gave him the address to deliver it to had screwed up, so that’s why he was giving it to us. I told him to thank the guy for fucking up.