This is a first. I got 3 comments from 3 different users all on the same day at the journal site. One was from Canada, one was from Diane, my guardian angel, and then what appeared to be some kid asking how do you know if you’ve got a guardian angel, cuz she wants one, too. I told her that my “guardian angel” was just a joke in reference to a cyber friend who has been looking out for me. If I really do have a guardian angel of unearthly sorts, I wouldn’t know it, LOL!

So anyway, Diane said I was correct in assuming she was of the penis-less type, and I had to laugh to myself and say, “I know. You’re Diane in NY and you’re as gay as I am!” But of course I said nothing of the sort. She says she loves reading my journal and looks forward to the stories of my crazy life.

Yeah, it’s a crazy life at times!

As for Marie, I still feel the same. A part of me says I shouldn’t even bother with her and that it would be easier if I didn’t. But I know I would miss her and so the other part is screaming, “I want my Marie! And I want her now!”

Nothing from Jan’s daughters, but I’m not surprised. Why should someone I have a crush on contact me, then be as thrilled as I was when Marie confessed her crush to me when I confessed mine to them? You know it never works that way.

Perhaps I shouldn’t, but I’m “Janalyzing” the possibilities as to why no email from her as of yet and came up with a few theories. Although it seems unlikely, it’s possible that neither daughter has checked her messages yet. It’s also possible that they did, but haven’t had a chance to pass my email along to Jan yet. Or, it could be that they did, but Jan just didn’t feel like emailing me. Maybe the idea of contacting me just felt strange if she even remembers me. I don’t think I gave the daughters enough information for her to know who I am. I just said I used to shop at her store before it was closed and lost her online store address. Maybe I should have been more detailed, IDK.

Wow, lots of Marie feedback! Some are saying dump her, she’s obsessed with me, she’s crazy, etc. Others think she is sweet and sincere. Well, I’ll certainly be keeping everyone’s advice in mind, but in the end, it will be up to yours truly to do what she’s gotta do.

Marie nearly hit a deer coming home from work and left some rubber on the road, that’s how far she skidded. I’m glad she’s ok! Someone recently got killed somewhere here in CA by slamming into a cow.

I realize my sister and her off (the wall) spring are gonna start up the harassment after my folks are gone and not around to worry about upsetting, A, Tammy doesn’t care who she upsets along the way when she wants to “get” someone, and B, I realize this is probably true, but that’s ok. I don’t have to take it and I won’t.

I won from the Incense Rack but decided to forfeit since I just got tons of incense.

So that’s how it is now? I can still win things if it’s something I don’t want? Too bad I don’t like to win just to win or else I’d be entering for trips to Alaska and other cold-as-hell places like crazy cuz I’d win for damn sure!

I thought I heard Jesse come down around 4pm, but realized it wasn’t him after all. So I’m hearing him when he does come down and I’m hearing him when he doesn’t. beats head But then he really truly did come down a half-hour later to get something from his shit pile. beats head again Tom said he saw him get some of the wood he just dropped off.

Why do these things have to be kept down here anyway? Is it just an excuse to drive down here so he can annoy me with his presence and remind us who’s king of the hill around here? Well, hell, why doesn’t he just keep his damn clothes down here, too?!

Too bad we don’t have a good-size pickup ourselves. Then we could haul the shit away and dump it somewhere and say it was stolen, LOL! Nah, he’d only restock new shit.

I know he worked today because when I went to pee at 5am I heard the dogs going crazy. Then when I went to pee again at 6:30 they were still going at it. They don’t take a breather till 8:00 or 9:00, but I crashed around 7:00. I’m totally on nights right now which I like and don’t like. My sleep is more threatened, but at night there’s no barking, no pesky Jesse, no nothing.

Off to edit my bio now. Still have over 200 pages to go through and it’ll probably be another 10 weeks or so before the entire thing is posted. It’s way more work than I thought it’d be because I’m changing so much.