I feel worse today than I did yesterday. I’m congested, my allergies are going crazy, and I feel drained of energy. What the hell is wrong with me and when am I ever going to get over whatever it is I’ve got???

Yesterday I watched a movie and did some reading but I’m continuing to neglect my book. I doubt I’ll get to it today either. If I have to take Benadryl for these allergies it will knock me out for a while and make me groggy as hell. Then I’ll really be able to complain about not doing as much as I’d like to do. All I’m doing today is a couple of loads of laundry. I didn’t even work out. I’m too weak and I would only have to stop to blow my nose along the way. It’s enough of a struggle just to do this entry.

I seem to have some kind of fungus in my toenails that is causing a few of the nails to be thick and discolored. It doesn’t hurt or anything; it’s just a bit unsightly. I think you need a prescription to treat nail fungus, though, but I’m not sure. I’m uninsured so I can’t see a doctor.

The troll just peeked in on me. Hopefully, she and her mother will be too busy with the baby the troll’s sister just had to pick on me.

Dustin, Aly’s BF, tweeted that Aly pulled through surgery but is remaining in the hospital overnight.

The next few hours are going to be a bit tense and anxious. I just dread the thought of Tom coming home to say that he was told not to return to work next year, though I didn’t have any bad dreams. More than likely, though, if they’re going to lay him off, they wouldn’t tell him that at work. Instead, the temp company would call this evening to tell him the job was over. That’s what happened last time. Anyway, the first quarter of the year will be a bit stressful unless they hire him on permanently and I just can’t see that happening.

Some German author named Clarisse whom I’ve never heard of friended me on Facebook. She’s got books on Amazon, too. Yup, I’m a magnet for those German ladies, LOL.

Later…

Before I get into what’s going on, yes, I have gone public again with my journaling. I was determined to stay underground for a while since it seemed to be the only way to purge my life of those I’ve asked to leave me alone a million times, but then I said to myself, “Why am I the one running if I know I haven’t done anything wrong?” I may have said some things that pissed some people off and that they may have disagreed with, but I wasn’t making any threats and wasn’t doing anything wrong, so why should I run and hide simply because some people just won’t take “no” for an answer when they try to contact me with their incessant needs and pleas? “Don’t contact me” means just that. Period. And so does “I don’t want to hear from you anymore.” This means that if you’re one of the ones I’ve ordered to leave me alone, I’m just going to keep on blocking and reporting you no matter how many accounts you create to harass me. I can’t control what my friends do. That’s up to them. I can only tell you what I will do.

The year is not ending on a very good note, I’m afraid, although things could be much worse. The water tank is leaking and I’ve been forced to go Mac since I’m getting too many attacks and viruses in Windows. This may take some getting used to but it simply doesn’t have the holes in it that Windows has, and like it or not it’s a lot safer to use. Rarely does OSX crash or encounter the kinds of problems Windows has. I was having tons of problems and nothing we did seemed to fix them. I had a barrage of pop-ups, I was being redirected, and we also suspected my computer was being used as a proxy. Pretty scary when you never can know for sure just what kind of illegal activities one may be up to who uses other people’s computers to hide behind.

So I’m learning this whole new system and this whole new way of doing things, although some things are very similar. There are some things I like better about it and some things I don’t. I love how OSX doesn’t need to be shut down, but the colors are hideously ugly and there doesn’t seem to be any way to change them. I’m also using OpenOffice since I can’t use WinWord and I don’t know if I like it very much at all. It takes large documents forever to load and I’m not finding all the functions I’m used to having readily available.

OSX’s choice of text readers sounds drunk but the text reading program I usually use isn’t Mac-compatible.

Anyway, it sucks that we have to deal with yet another thing breaking around here. I know I’ve said it a million times already, but I am so sick of living in dumps! I really hope we get out of here next summer. I’m sick of being cramped in here and I’m sick of all the problems this place has had. I’m glad it won’t cost us anything to replace the tank (we had this happen to us in our house in Phoenix), but it will cost me sleep. My schedule is the worst it can be for this shit! And the hot water tank is wedged in between the bathroom and bedroom so I’ll hear Jesse just fine when he comes down in the morning to see how bad the leak is and what he can do about it till he can get a new tank on Tuesday.

As for this cold; I feel like I’m never going to shake it. :(

The good news is that Tom’s going back to work next year and they expect to be very busy, too. This much is a huge relief to know.