I have so much to say but so little time because I can’t wait to get to Amazon’s Prime movie section and catch up on horror, suspense, thrillers and mystery movies! The free month came with the Kindle Fire Tom won at work!

When I first got up and saw it sitting on the table I thought I won it since I’m still winning things as the last of the expiration dates trickle on through. I won a beauty box containing various beauty products, so I thought it was a surprise win, even though they usually notify you upfront about big prizes. But I once was surprised with a $600 electric guitar so I figured why not a Kindle?

But I couldn’t find the box it was shipped in to get an idea of where it came from and all Tom said in his email that he left when he crashed was that we’d register my Hanukah present when he got up. My first thought was that while it was nice he shouldn’t have gotten it as we’re supposed to be saving to get out of here so I don’t have to keep hearing half-hour spurts of Jesse gunning his fucking motorcycle on and off. Thank God he’s usually quiet on weekends and at night, but tonight I got the dogs since I don’t think he took off last night based on how quiet it was.

Anyway, I’m looking forward to learning more about how to use it. It’s pretty high-tech! Love how it flips from landscape to portrait just by flipping it to the side. It’s heavier than it looks, though. I’ll never read another physical book again! I’m totally addicted to the digital format and never again do I have to worry the print is too small or having inadequate lighting, etc. I can’t wait to get reading and watching!

I’m supposedly able to download my own books for free but we have yet to figure out how. Now that I know it can take time for German sales reports to update I wonder if there’s a delay in this country, too. If there is then that might not have been Polly who bought my book around the time she visited my last blog.

Oh, Scheiße! Kim and her overtweeting! She’s a really nice girl, but she drives me nuts at times because she’s so damn wordy. What can be said in a simple sentence or two takes her 15 tweets. :( Her journal entries make mine seem short and sweet, too.

Back to the Kindle. They were giving away a lot of prizes at work and they were all wrapped in gift wrapping paper so you couldn’t see what the prize was. The only thing that was obvious was the 50” TV. Well, we rarely watch our 32” TV and because we’re not hard up for money right now Tom figured there’d be no point in choosing that to at least sell. They also had Playstations, gift cards and things like that. He was thrilled to have chosen the Kindle. A couple of others asked to buy it off him, but nope, LOL. We’re keeping it for ourselves unless we’re forced to sell it in the future. My first thought was that books are kind of expensive and so I wasn’t sure we could get much use out of it, though Tom would certainly love to play games on it and it’s another great source to back up things on like pics, docs and music. But then he told me they have a library! Hope it has a good selection.

My parents are missing so much! They’d love this thing if they would just get their asses back online.

Anyway, it’s a nice gift after having to shell out over $200 for a new windshield which is being replaced today, and then $270 on Monday for a propane tank fill-up. It is peak season, though, so it’s very costly now.

What else…my ear (or maybe tooth?) ached like crazy yesterday, we hit freezing last night for the first time this year, and I’m “friends” with the troll. Yeah, Aly and I got to talking about it and she was dealing with her by trying to be nice to her figuring it might cause her to back off a bit. Instead, she started getting clingy wanting her to add her on Facebook and all that, so I decided that the way to find the key to keeping her at bay may be to get inside her head a bit, and the way to do that is to give her a chance to prove she can be a decent enough friend. As you’ll see in the copy of the post below that I created just for her, I told her I would give her the attention she craves and let her read and comment on my blogs if she promises to leave the others alone. She said she’d leave Kim and Kathy alone. I hope that means Alison too, who I’m really worried about. She also told me what she likes to do for fun on my wall, friended me with two of her accounts, and made a journal post of her own addressed to me (I can’t believe she spelled my name right) saying she finds my blog very interesting (though she told Aly she reads it cuz she’s bored) and hopes to read my stories someday. As I told her, if she says or does anything to make me feel offended or uncomfortable in any way, I’m gone.

Molly,

I have reached out to you on other sites recently and tried to get you to tell me why you’re following me and why you’re so interested in me. But you have not answered my question. Back when you and your mother were harassing me on MyOpera and threatening me with bogus lawsuits, your mother said that you approached me because you wanted to be my friend. But since I happened to be friends with someone you’re no longer friends with is what made me suspicious of your true intentions. Can you understand this, Molly? Imagine if it had been you and how awkward and suspicious you would have felt too. I never had a problem with you, Molly, it was your inability to understand and accept that “no” really meant “no” when I, or others, would ask that you stop following us and stop trying to friend/message us. Know what I’m saying? So it was never you that I disliked, but your behavior instead.

When I first realized who you were I got the immediate feeling that you were only trying to get on my good side in hopes of me trying to get your former friends to be your buddy again. I have thought about asking you directly if this was ever the case or not, but wasn’t sure I’d get a truthful answer from you because you’ve been known to lie before. You’ve said things like how you hadn’t been reading my blog when my tracker said otherwise. Someone also told me that you wrote that rejection pisses you off. But then why do things to piss others off and cause them to reject you? Trying to force and push your existence on those who don’t want to be your friend is certainly going to piss them off and make them reject you even more. This is the part I’m trying to understand about you. Why would you want to try to make people like you that don’t like you when there are millions of other fish in the sea to seek out and that will like and accept you into their lives??? Did something bad happen in your life to make you feel such a need to reach out to those who reject you? You even once said yourself in your own blog that you need to work out with your therapist why you do such things.

It’s ok to feel hurt and even angry when someone dumps us or suddenly ceases contact with us and starts ignoring us. But it’s NOT ok to keep trying to “win them over” when they’ve specifically told you many times that they don’t want to hear from you. We can’t make people like or love us, Molly. Don’t you think you deserve better anyway than to surround yourself with people who don’t care?

I don’t know what makes you tick and I don’t know much about you, but nonetheless, you obviously have a serious interest in my blog. So much so that you had your friend show you how to beat my blocks that I had on Tumblr. I always assumed it was just to see if I mentioned you or others you used to know. I just couldn’t imagine someone nearly 20 years younger finding me interesting. But you tell me… am I? I’m asking you directly instead of making assumptions of my own and jumping the gun. WHY do you follow me from site to site and read everything I write?

Here is my offer to you and your chance to prove yourself but it’s strictly up to you. If you’re not interested – fine. If you will promise to leave the others alone and never again contact your former friends, I will let you read and even comment on my blogs. I just might even read and comment on yours too, if you’d like. But as soon as you try to get me to pass messages to others or anything else that either offends or makes me uncomfortable, I’m gone. I do not let people pressure me into doing things I don’t want to do. I’m not saying you’d do that; I’m just telling you like it is. Do you understand what I’m saying? I’ll give you a chance and I’ll give you the attention you seem to want, but you MUST leave the others alone. If for any reason I decide to end our so-called friendship (if one ever gets started) I not only have the right to end it just like you do if you decide you don’t like me or get sick of me, but there will be NO more contact at that point. Understand? You are now unblocked here and my blogs are open to comments. It is up to you to respond to the offer or not.

Jodi

What was funny was the unexpected feedback it generated when someone said, “My name is Molly, but I guess you’re not talking about me, LOL.” And then another one who said they found it very inspiring and was also a writer. They said they had published a few articles with The New York Times and wrote a children’s book, but wondered about publishing novels online. She was afraid to get caught up in what might be a scam. So I told her about my books for sale on Amazon and recommended she try publishing through them. I’ve already started formatting the next book I intend to publish through them.

I’m worried about Alison. She’s getting both breasts removed on the 27th, but says she’s got a really bad feeling this time around.