I gained back 3 of the 4 pounds I lost thanks to a bag of Jelly Belly’s on Saturday and a stint at KFC on Sunday, but it was worth it. I’ll only run it back off over the week anyway.

It’s going to be warm today so I turned the heat off and am going to get my running out of the way after I post this.

Anyway, some people have been curious, so to clarify the curiosity, I’m not an atheist. An Atheist are those who do not believe there is a God. I’m more agnostic because I just don’t know. I haven’t seen anything with my own two eyes to convince me there is a God, but I haven’t been convinced that there isn’t a God either. I simply do not know.

It was nice hearing from Nane this morning. She’s busy at work now as the first of the month is when they’re at their busiest, and is redecorating her bedroom. The way she talks of repainting and redoing the wallpaper and all that makes me think she owns and doesn’t rent. Still, it’s another reason to be glad we’re not neighbors as hot as she is, LOL. She says she probably won’t be online for a few days but will share a picture when it’s all done. She’s going from dark peach to light cream, I guess, to make the room seem larger. She’s also super happy for Tom and I.

I’ve never been a fan of dark colors in general. I like pastels or neons, but because I like to sleep in total darkness, a midnight blue or deep purple bedroom might be ideal.

Either way, the decorating has always been up to me. Tom has never worn the pants in that department, LOL, and as I love to remind him, he doesn’t even wear a shirt!

Still nothing from Maliheh and I don’t want to go asking and whining about why I haven’t heard from her in so long. If my suspicions are right about her, that’d be what she’d want.

Later…

Let’s see…Jesse drove me crazy earlier, the propane people will be here today, and it looks like I’m going to get through the first business day of April without any pig shit. New quarter, new worries. But like I said before, I will make them suffer more than they could ever make me suffer should they decide to fuck with me in person. Unfortunately, there are still 28 more days in the month. After all, they didn’t stick their nose in my Google info till the 18th of October, and they waited till the 9th of January to email me if it was really them. Don’t know the point in pulling a piggy impersonation, though, other than just to scare me till I called the pigs, as they hoped, only to be told they had no information for me. Real pigs or not, if I can get to May without hearing anything I’ll breathe a lot easier.

I swear I even had a dream last night where she was apologizing to me. LOL, nothing she’d dare do even with a gun held to her head or an offer of a million dollars.

Later…

You know how I have a million reasons to resent God and be pissed at Him? Well, I’m actually thanking the hell out of Him right now. It doesn’t undo the past, but you see, if he hadn’t gotten that job, TODAY would’ve been his last day! Yup, the would-be lay-off. Right now I’d be miserable and crying tears of frustration. Instead, I’m nearly in tears of gratitude. Had he been laid off we could’ve been stuck here indefinitely depending on how long it took him to find another job and what it paid. Others were laid off today. He could’ve been one of them, but something looked out for us for once, though Tom is a very good worker who proved himself worthy of being hired.

His new shift is going to be 10am - 6:30pm. He’s very happy with those hours. Less traffic but that still leaves mornings open, and for some things, evenings as well. Sometimes I wonder if it’s my dad looking out for us and not God. Why all of a sudden? Less than 6 weeks after my dad dies something suddenly seems to care about us. Whatever it is, I’m just glad he wasn’t one of the ones to be axed! I’d be all pissed, bummed out and stressed out as Tom scurried to apply for unemployment and food subsidies yet again. It would have ended up draining our savings to supplement what it didn’t cover, etc.

Can’t wait to find out if he gets a raise and what it may be. The supervisor put in for him to get a raise but because he has the same job title, he may not. I’m just glad he didn’t get laid off and that today wasn’t the shitty day it could’ve been!

I’m also glad he’s finally getting the recognition and the pay he deserves. A $600 biweekly unemployment check was not what he deserved for 28 months.