Maliheh visited my blog again, but just like last time, there’s no navigation info on her. Not even the landing page. Also like last time, TIP didn’t land on her rooftop but somewhere else in her town.

The troll’s visits are picking up in regularity, but they’re still very short and sweet and she’s still not doing her own blogging. Today’s visit was something like 36 seconds.

When Tom was picking me up extra pads, he also swiped a thin foam mattress pad. Its size is full and just plain foam. None of that memory crap. It’s the ideal topper for air, water or coil mattresses.

Today’s the day we moved into this little trailer exactly 4 years ago. After an 8-month hotel stay it was great. We no longer had to deal with door slamming, TVs and music blaring, cars honking, and pleasant but annoying hotel staff. But I have since grown beyond sick of this place. I’ve had my fill of the lack of space, and the intermittent racket from my landlord’s many loud vehicles and dogs, and now it’s time to move on.

Saw a movie last night about the relationship between these two lesbians. It was a good movie but the lesbians themselves were so unrealistic. This is because they were both so damn feminine. They were actually bisexual, but still, most bisexuals and lesbians find fems as unattractive as most men find 250-pound women unattractive. I have about half a dozen or so friends, both cyber and not, that are either bi or lesbian. Only Marie and Nane find me physically attractive and I honestly don’t know that Nane considers me that attractive. Marie’s no real surprise, though, because she herself looks very lesbian and pretty much considers anything without a stick shift between the legs attractive, LOL. Besides, we don’t keep in touch. So out of the 5 or 6 bis/les ladies that I do keep in touch with and consider close friends, I’ve got one “half-assed” attraction. Like I said, fems just don’t fit into that world very well but the guys sure do love them. Put me in a room with one straight guy and a dozen lesbians and I’m sure the guy will be the only one to notice me unless any of the lesbians are so butchy that they too, look like guys.

Did some other research after remembering that my mom’s mom once said what her maiden name was. Both my grandmothers were born in the US, but I still have no clue as to what my dad’s grandparents’ first names are or what my mom’s dad’s parents’ names could’ve been. Especially if they were Austrian and Russian. But mom’s mom was definitely from MA and I did find a Sadie C born in 1880 who was married to William, and they seem the most likely. Wonder which one was the bitch that made my grandmother one as well. Either way, William was born in Russia, too. Since Tom’s obsessed with censuses and digging up other old info we’ll see if he can connect those names to Shirley G.

I just hope this heavy bleeding that’s beginning to concern me a bit isn’t a sign of anything serious. It could cause a significant delay in the move if anything serious is going on, not to mention the fact that I probably won’t be insured till close to the end of the year.

If any older women (older than 46) have any insight for me, do let me know. For years my periods were punctual and short-lived where I’d only bleed heavy (though not as heavy as in my teens and 20s) for a few hours. By day 3 it’d be gone. But this time around I started spotting at mid-cycle. It went on for a week before becoming a regular and heavy period. This was two days ago and I’m still bleeding heavily. Not hemorrhaging or anything like that, but it’s consistent enough. I have no other symptoms. No pain or anything like that. Hopefully, it’s just either part of menopause or whacky hormone fluctuations due to age. I’d LOVE to have a hysterectomy and be forever done with periods, but not while I’m uninsured!

Anyway, I’ve been writing an awful lot lately – maybe too much by some people’s standards, though I’m actually doing shorter posts more often instead of longer posts less often – but if writing is supposed to burn calories as I’ve heard, it’s forgotten mine. But one look at me and you can see I’m seriously fit despite how heavy I am. I’m small but heavy. Petite in height and inches but still have some fat and tons of muscle from the running and lifting. I’m about 140 pounds. I read that if you’re fat but fit you’ll live longer than if you were thin and out of shape. Well, I’m definitely a fit fatty! You can see most of the muscle mass in my shoulders, biceps, abs and calves. I have a HUGE muscle that slashes straight down the quads, but that one’s harder to see cuz I still have too much fatty tissue overlaying that area.

The propane guy noticed how I’ve been looking, LOL, saying he thought I was 40. And this is after I stopped dying my hair so I’d look older trying to get into a retirement community this summer. Tom looks his age, but I don’t quite look mine. I’m close in the face but have a very youthful-looking body. A shitty one compared to 20 years ago, but still quite youthful. Assault it enough with weights, running sprees and hunger and it tends to end up that way later on in life.

I do a good job of staying away from sugar, pasta and other starchy foods during the week and sticking to a high-protein diet which mostly consists of meat, fruits, veggies and a little dairy, but I need to do better on weekends. I also need to build more stamina. I know that may sound funny since most people in their 20s would probably struggle to keep up with me, but my goal is to sustain a 20-30 minute run between 4-5 MPH without having to break it up into sessions of twos or threes. I’m really close now, though! The fish oil has really helped my joints tremendously so that’s helped me not have to break things up as much. But if this damn bleeding keeps up I’ll have to stop the fish oil and see if the bleeding backs off. That’s the only change I’ve made recently.

Just did some research. Hmm… maybe it’s time to back off the fishies for sure. Bummer! I really liked having less joint pain. Better this, though, than anything serious when you’re uninsured. Yet the reading I did does suggest it could be the fish oil and I did start it right before the spotting began.