Love how I can queue entries up to be posted at a certain time. It’s actually 1am PT but I kind of like to post at “normal” hours every now and then, so I’ll have it launch at 9am ET.

Just did part 1 of 2 of today’s workout. I mixed 5-MPH sprints in with 3-MPH walks so I could do some reading. Because I mixed some walking in it took me longer to burn 150 calories (20 min.) and in a little while I’ll repeat the process till I have my daily goal of 300 calories burned.

Not much else to say at the moment. Oddly enough I don’t remember one single dream I had last night. This is probably a good thing in my case.

Later…

Maliheh did me a favor and hit my blog as I asked her to if everything was showing up ok on her end (mainly graphics) if she still didn’t want to chat. That’s really nice of her but what’s keeping her away so long, so often??? Is she playing with me? Could she have more feelings for me than I realize? Could she be uncomfortable with my liking her? Could she simply not be big on chatting? Something else? The only thing I’m pretty sure of where she’s concerned is that she’s not mad at me. If she were she’d say so.

Jesse’s wasting absolutely no time at all in being obnoxious since there’s been a break in the rain. It wasn’t even 9am on Saturday morning yet already he’d come and gone twice. I could even hear him slamming doors to his truck and what may’ve been the sound of him throwing something in back of it. Where the fuck has this jobless cock got to go this early on a cloudy, chilly Saturday morning??? Again, just knowing this one person close to 200’ away can be almost as annoying as a pack of freeloaders within arm’s reach is a little scary. It makes me wonder if I’ll ever have peaceful neighbors no matter where I live and, how many of them there are, and how far away they are.

At least the prick took his dogs with him, based on the fact that they haven’t started barking since he left for the first of what will probably be 6 times today. Unless someone’s there like maybe his son.

Do everyone’s neighbors do this? Do they all come and go so damn often and have company nearly every single day? I can only think of maybe two neighbors I’ve had in the last 20 years that didn’t come and go so much and have frequent company. This would be my only real concern in an adult community. We’d be back to having neighbors just a few yards away, and having car doors slamming so close to the house so often could get pretty damn annoying. But the only way we’ll know for sure what it’s like there is to actually live in one of these communities, preferably not on the edge where we’d be too close to the mainstream which would include barking dogs, screaming kids, loud car stereos and other chaos.

Despite the loss of downtime and other things, Tom’s glad to be working today because that just means more money for moving. I’d rather get out of here sooner as soon as we have enough saved, rather than stay here longer to save up more for the things we’ll want to get for the new place as well. However, we can’t adjust his DOB so even if we’ve got the money right now we can’t just up and go. So we’ll be here at least till July 1st, possibly August 1st, but no later than September 1st. Something definitely went wrong if we’re here into the fall.

I can’t wait to get into the new place, wherever it is, and get saving again and prioritizing lists of things we need/want! I’ve learned that having a savings, even if it’s just a grand or two is more important than how much money you make. If you make $20 an hour but have nothing in savings if your car completely craps out on you, you’re fucked. So the first thing I’ll want to do is boost the savings back up after the move before we start any shopping. Who knows, we may have a helluva head start when the time comes.

One of the first things we’ll want is a full-size washer and dryer. Oh, how I miss the days of just being able to walk up to a washer that’s always hooked up and ready to go! A portable is better than nothing, but I still miss it. And I’ve always preferred clothes dried in dryers as opposed to line-dried. Line-dried makes them too stiff.

We’ll also want to replace one of the computer desks and get a real couch instead of this beat-up futon. I miss having a “normal” setup and a more traditional-looking place. The TV can be mounted on the wall so there’s no need to get any kind of a stand or table for that, though I’ll want to get shelves for collectibles and stuff like that.

I can’t wait to take and share pictures of the new place, and yes, I may even throw in some of myself. I wanted to wait till I made more progress with working out and all that stuff, but I realize I’m never going to be happy with my appearance no matter what, and hey, 80% of us over 45 don’t exactly look all that great anyway.

It’s gonna be a helluva day the day we leave here, considering that it sure looked like we were going to be going out in body bags at one point when things were so bad for us and seemed so hopeless.

I still want to share what I can no longer share. I don’t eat burritos very often but I had one for variety today. I pulled it out of the toaster oven and sat down at the table with it. I picked off part of the crisp wrapping and thought to myself what a nice treat it would make for the rat, only to remember he was no longer here to share these things with me.

I looked out the window at his grave, made wet from all the fierce rain we recently had, and my eyes stung with tears. He should be in here with me and not in the ground. I still wonder if that dream of him crawling all over me was just a dream or if it was his way of visiting from the other side.

I like the ease of not having a pet. I don’t have to shoo them away from shit they shouldn’t be getting into or anything like that. But even more, I miss having a pet. I said I wanted to wait till after the move, though, to make it easier on us, but that only makes the move seem even further away. Especially when our bastard landlord is running and gunning engines for what seems like forever! I know it will need it, but he is going to drive me so crazy with that bulldozer soon enough when he goes to smooth the ruts out of the drive.

He’s also not going to be happy to lose such fine tenants, LOL.