I should’ve known better than to open my mouth and tell someone that one of my good friends is the adoptive daughter of a famous puppeteer. Why? Well, they don’t believe it, of course. So what if I have absolutely NO reason whatsoever to lie about all these things I’m supposedly making up or not fessing up to? So what if I have absolutely nothing to gain from lying? Lying doesn’t make me any money, it doesn’t make me immune to illness, and it doesn’t guarantee I’ll never be in a bad accident, so what is it with these people??? Trust issues due to being lied to by others? Well, I’m sorry there are a lot of liars out there, but you know what? I’m getting sicker and sicker of trying to defend and convince others that I tell it like it is and so I give up. From now on I’m just going to let the truth be whatever people want and believe it to be and not what I say. If it gets that bad with certain people I can always ignore them. After all, no one wants to hang on or offline with anyone who doesn’t believe or trust them. When you can’t trust someone you make it hard for them to trust you.

Ok, so I can see where some people who don’t know me well may think I was joking since it’s a celebrity that’s involved and all that, but sometimes I find myself having to reassure people of the dumbest of things, particularly Andy. The most trivial things can be oh so damn hard for some people to simply take my word for like my favorite color, what mood I’m in, what my weather is like. I live here. Shouldn’t I know what my own weather is like? It’s my brain. Shouldn’t I know what it likes and feels?

Sometimes I wonder if people are just hoping to pick fights with whoever they can and that it’s not just about them being insecure or having trust issues. I guess I should just be more selective about who I share what with. I wouldn’t want someone to think I was ready to commit suicide simply because I said I was pissed that I got a paper cut or anything like that!

Later…

Nane just messaged me saying she still has no Internet at home yet but confirmed that she’s been doing OT for a colleague who’s on vacation. “It sucks because I don’t even have time for a lunch break,” she said. But she has time to view my blog? I didn’t tell her that, though, LOL.