At this very moment 20 years ago I was in the air and on my way from New England to Arizona. “Don’t hate Arizona just because of one case,” someone once said. Easier said than done when that one case was you. On the other hand, I was/am far from the only white person to get railroaded by the legal system there, and I also know that had I never lived there I never would’ve met Tom. But now that I’ve been married to Tom for almost 18 years and haven’t lived there in almost 8, a horse with a 500-mile-wide ass can fly over the damn state and shit on it for all I care.

I have both good and bad bodily news. The good news is that even though my own ass is nearly 500 miles wide, and even though I have tons of fat on my arms, they’re looking really scary when I flex my biceps! Love the way you can see the muscles sort of twist around each other in “waves” like on a bodybuilder. To be able to see so much muscle shining through all that fat is a reminder of just how much muscle I’ve built up.

Also, some of the exercises I’m doing really helps keep my chest lifted as if I were wearing a bra even when I’m not. I was out at KFC earlier in a rather form-fitting tank top that’s sort of tight and clingy even though it’s not. This woman who was perhaps in her 60s couldn’t take her eyes off a certain area, LOL, even though I still wish I were flat. I still look like shit at the same time my body looks much younger than its 46 years from the years of working out. I’m never going to lose the fat no matter how much muscle and stamina I continue to build up. That much is obvious. I simply can’t deal with the hunger and fatigue of half-starving myself to lose more than just a few pounds. Therefore, I’ll remain the big girl I was meant to be.

The bad bodily news is that I definitely have one, possibly two, infected teeth. I may’ve mentioned this earlier, though they’re not yet as bad as the tooth I had pulled a year ago. Tom read that gargling with both salt and baking soda helps kill infections, so we’re going to try that first since I really would prefer to wait till we get moved before I see a dentist. Not because I think spending the extra money would delay the move but because we don’t know where we’re going to end up. I don’t want us to have to drive 40 minutes to the dentist after we move, and I don’t want to bounce around from dentist to dentist either, so if this will back off some of the pain for a few more months, great.