OMG! For the first time since I started playing around with the good doc (Alyssa), my message appears as “seen” by her. I figured she was getting them since no one’s complained about Facebook not delivering messages in a while, but was unsure if she was actually reading them. I was thinking they were probably going to her “other” box and she wasn’t noticing them. I wonder, though, is this the first message she’s actually read? Or is this just the first message that’s appeared as read? No sign of her checking out my blog, though. 

I’ve been having fun sending her a few chapters at a time of the story I threw her in just for kicks, knowing I’ll never hear from her or see her again anyway. Once she denied my friend request, I knew then and there that she wasn’t interested in any kind of friendship. You know how it is for me anyway… no hotties are meant to be, even if they’re only friends unless they live in another state or country. 

What I don’t get, though, is why she hasn’t blocked me. She’s prevented me from sending additional friend requests (I sent more than one in case she didn’t get the first one), hasn’t replied to any of my messages, but hasn’t blocked me? Could she be curious about the story? I’ve sent about 6 chapters so far out of 16. Or could she be hoping to “get” me somehow? She certainly doesn’t seem the vindictive type like Maliheh was so I don’t know what to think. 

Tammy's doctor’s appointment didn’t go off very well yesterday. She’s in pain, allergic to whatever her doctor used on her, and then learned she won’t be able to have a total knee replacement on her other knee. She said they think it could further complicate her health. 

*sighs sadly* I feel so bad for her. I don’t expect everyone I know to be all fluff and sunshine every single day, but I wish they weren’t so miserable so often. Life is one big struggle, though, like it or not. That’s why I’m enjoying these better days; because I know that sooner or later all good things really do come to an end. But nothing stays the same forever. Not even the bad times. They didn’t for me and they won’t for her. 

Went out walking for 36 minutes yesterday and burned 228 calories while my HR averaged 126. I did some running along with walking, too. I was amazed that Tom could keep up with me, LOL. 

Spicy black raspberry hot chocolate sucks. I’ve also learned that hot chocolate of any kind is a Keurig jammer, so I’ve got to clean it with the silicone thingy and run a few ounces of hot water through it afterward. 

I love to sample variety packs, but there are a few I don’t care for. Not impressed with the pineapple coconut water you brew over ice either. 

Still loving my new diffuser. It’s way easier to clean than the wax warmers, despite the lack of variety in fragrances. Out of the 20 scents I got, I don’t care for the citronella or the lemongrass, so I’ll give those to – Kathleen? Katherine? – at the dentist’s office tomorrow. 

I definitely like the Emori’s I ordered on Amazon as opposed to the one I got at Walmart. They’re smaller bottles, but since you only need a few drops, they should last a long time. 

Anyway, tomorrow is when I get the temporary crown put on my tooth, and of course my stomach is doing a little flip-flop just thinking about it. Even though I’ve had it done before and I know it can’t hurt me, I’m definitely not looking forward to it or that deafening, maddening drill. The dentist is aware of my anxiety issues due to the health problems I’ve had so she already knows to make sure there’s no epinephrine in the Novocain and to chill pill me as well. 

Later… 

Ok, this has got to be a glitch, so no, Alyssa probably hasn’t seen my messages. She more than likely doesn’t know they’re there or simply ignores them. Both my last two messages appear to have been read the same minute I sent them. No way. Unless she just happened to be sitting there when I sent them… I mean, what are the odds of that? Will send one in the middle of the night sometime and see what happens then. 

Went to check Tammy's message and not only does my last message to her say it was read the minute I sent it, but now Nane's last message appears as read when I sent it months ago. No wonder. I knew the doctor wouldn’t just take a sudden interest in me. Like I said, though, I’ll send a message in the middle of the night as soon as I’m able to do so and see what happens with that.