You don’t need another candle, you don’t need another candle, you don’t need another candle, she tells herself but orders a Cafe Sweets triple-scented candle anyway. I swear this will be it for a while, and future candles won’t be over $10!

Yesterday I had decent energy, but today it’s back to the usual fatigue. So much for the wonders of CoQ10 and CPAP therapy, although CPAP therapy is at least keeping me from suffocating awake and having tight lungs when awake. Meanwhile, I started B-12 supplements, but unless I have a deficiency I don’t know about, I can’t expect it to restore my energy, especially if my worst suspicions are correct in that I do have CF. It would be nice if the fatigue was due to becoming prediabetic, as Rhonda said could cause fatigue, and then I became diabetic, went on metformin, could magically tolerate it, and got my energy back. But I couldn’t get off that easily, of course. There’s never a quick fix for me. Some doctors would already want to medicate me, believing it’s better to medicate people when they become prediabetic rather than wait until they actually become diabetic. We’ll see what my A1C is in a few months. At that time, I definitely want to try to find out why I’m gaining weight. Is something going on, or is it just age? I couldn’t have weight loss shots because, like with allergy shots, they’re a weekly thing. They do have oral medications, but from what I read, they’re not as effective.

I’ll go back to taking my antihistamine at the beginning of my day rather than the end, and see if that helps me sleep a little better, but I doubt it. This is as good as it’s ever going to get for me. I’m just going to have to learn to live with it once and for all.

Going to try to make a point of getting as much sunlight as I can when I can. It’s been a while, so today we’re gonna go out to BK.

Tom had another follow-up appointment with his eye doctor yesterday, and everything looks good. He has to go back in December, and then he’s done. We’re so glad he was able to get this done and that it didn’t cost thousands of dollars!

He and I had an interesting discussion about his inability to imagine and picture certain things. You know how most of us can visualize in our minds a place, a person, or even imagine a sound or a smell? Well, he can’t do that for some reason. He had meningitis as a little kid that nearly killed him, and we wonder if maybe somehow it’s connected to that. He can remember a certain song, for example, that he knows, but he can’t play it in his head.

So I was on the road earlier in VR, and I’m working on the trip I’ve created from Alaska to here. As I was going through the rural parts of Alaska where people are very isolated and have a lot of breathing room and fresh air around them, there was a part of me that envied them and misses living off the grid or close enough to it. But not as much as before, and that’s a good thing, because for once in my life, I don’t want to be always wishing I could be somewhere else. I want to be at peace and content with where I’m at, even if it’s not perfect. No, the house isn’t as big as I’d like. No, we don’t have a stunning view. No, the neighbors aren’t perfect. No, this isn’t a great place for allergies. But the weather is great and it’s relatively inexpensive. If we were still under 50, that’d be different. Back when we were young and healthy, that was the time for those kinds of adventures. But now that we’re getting older and have health issues, especially me, it really is best to stick to civilization and not venture too far away from things like doctors and hospitals. Besides, had we gone to New Mexico, we would have only had to deal with things there that were less than perfect.