I finally heard from Mary. She said something about them cutting off the phones and depriving them of envelopes for a couple of weeks, which of course, is highly illegal. But it’s a jail, so it’s ok. They can do it. They can get away with it.

She confirmed that the trial had been postponed, but didn’t say what the new date was. Maybe she doesn’t know it yet.

She’s still with Hope. Damn! That’s like - what? Six months? Wish I could’ve been with one person I got along with for the 6 months I was there, but obviously, God wanted me to meet all different kinds of people.

And to get my heart broken as well. Mary’s no doubt going to be as shocked as I am when I tell her Teddy Bear stood me up.

She shocked me by saying that Pérez finally worked in M Dorm and so she gave her my letter. This got me thinking, was she really in the tents? Tent DOs don’t do towers and dorms. At least, they didn’t in the past. Was she really ever in the tents? Could this mean that Teddy Bear may never have left Estrella and just hasn’t worked M? I doubt it, but if she is there, will they forward the letter to her or will they send it back? And once again, if she didn’t get the letter, then why isn’t she calling? Is she really that shy?

I don’t know, I still think she got the letter and is ignoring me. If I’m right, I hope her next girlfriend, if she doesn’t already have one, fucks her over good. Wouldn’t it be oh so funny if the girlfriend decided to dump her in a few months to a year, then Teddy Bear was like, damn! I should’ve called Dawn.

But I know better than to think that God would give someone a taste of their own medicine as long as it’s me they fucked over. I’m sure the girlfriend will be a regular little sweetheart.

I’ll have to ask Mary if Pérez mentioned getting my letter.

Anyway, I know I’m never going to forget the redheaded DO with the vibrant personality and the great ass. I also know there’s a damn good chance she’s done me a favor by choosing to ignore me. We would’ve only ended up getting sick of each other and maybe even fighting, too. The sex would’ve had its problems like it always does for me. Tom would’ve gotten jealous and tried putting guilt trips on me when we weren’t fighting about her. Despite my and Tom’s lack of interest in each other, I may’ve ended up feeling guilty as all hell for sleeping with her.

I just wish I knew for sure what happened! And what’s going to happen today when I see the cheeks?

Maybe Misha opened her mouth. Maybe she said something to Teddy Bear about our talks about her and that drove her away. Maybe she had a problem with some other inmate and decided against seeing any past inmates on the outs.

I wondered, could her transfer to Madison have anything to do with me? It seems silly to think it could since she left 6 or 7 months after I did, but maybe my mail to and from Mary was being monitored a lot closer than I realized and that had something to do with it. Or maybe she had a problem with some other inmate and they decided to ship her to Madison where she’d be around more males.

Oh, how could she do this to me?! She just seemed so real! So, so for real. What happened, Teddy Bear? What happened???