I should never have agreed to message Bob for Kim because now she’s emailing me about it, even though I’ve told her more than once to wait and let me catch up on her old messages before she hits me with more stuff. At least this one wasn’t long. It was just to tell me that he’s pissing her off again and also insisting he hates texts and emails. Gee, I wonder why Kim is. Think maybe he could be saying that to stop you from sending him 50 emails a day?

What is it with autistic people getting so obsessed with people and interests? It’s one thing to be passionate about something you enjoy, but it’s another to get downright obsessed. Same with people. It’s okay to be really into someone and follow their interests and what’s going on in their lives whether they’re famous or not. But it’s not okay to stalk the shit out of them to the point that they feel annoyed and or threatened, and this is basically what she’s doing just like she did to June, to me, and to others in the past.

Carol, please throw her in a group home already!

It’s funny, though, because Tom’s pretty sure that if he was a kid today, he would be diagnosed with autism. Maybe I would too. One of the possible indicators is being bothered by noise and textures. I had to laugh at that one because he’s definitely bothered by certain textures, and I’m definitely bothered by certain sounds. If the sound is loud or too repetitious, it gets to me. But at least Tom and I don’t hound the shit out of people and then spite them when they don’t give us the attention we want. If you want to know all about me because you’re genuinely curious and you care, I’m flattered. If you want to know because you want to punish me for some imagined offense or because we may not agree on something, fuck you.

I’m really getting worried about my weight. It’s inching up a little more. Is it really because of my thyroid? My eating habits haven’t changed but we do need fewer calories the older we get so I guess it really is time to start focusing on eating less. For a while, I mostly focused on ingredients but now I need to focus on calories.

Yesterday I had decent energy and I should have pushed myself to do more when I had the chance. I did some dusting but I’m otherwise exhausted because I was up a long time and didn’t sleep long. I also woke up to pee and with a stuffy nose, so I had to stop and put on a nose strip. Like I said, if it isn’t outside noise, it’s me. I swear something is cursing my sleep and wants me tired.

It saddens me to think that if I’m right about having chronic fatigue regardless of what else is going on with me how hard the rest of my life is going to be. I’m more homebound than ever. I’m not able to walk as much as I did in the last place and even there I lost a lot of walking time due to feeling shitty. Now that it’s not so hot I’m trying to make a point of going out and walking more but it’s not that easy. I barely managed to do a quick loop around the block today. There’s no way I can stick to anything above and beyond the glider regularly be it the vibe platform or Bowflex or walking. With my energy levels the way they are, I would only be able to do these things a couple of times a week and that’s not enough to really reap the benefits. You need to do them at least five times a week, especially the vibe and walking/jogging. So I’m not likely to up the cardio anytime soon but I’m going to try to make a point of at least doing a few sit-ups like when I’m on the floor playing with the rat and working my arm with the exercise ring.

Not surprisingly, while I was out walking I heard three planes just in the few minutes it took me to circle the block. It’s terrible here. All the airlines care about are their profits and to hell with how it affects anyone else. Again, it’s not that it’s loud but it’s way too much. Too much of anything is simply too much. A few a day would be fine but more than a few dozen is not. And this isn’t counting the small planes and helicopters but at least those aren’t as bad as they were in the old place.

As I passed by the bitch’s house I saw that only her motorcycle was there and noticed for the first time that her car has a Kentucky plate. She doesn’t seem to be a snowbird so why the out-of-state plate?

Tom said Happy’s been back to barking again but I think I’ve only heard him once in weeks. Wouldn’t be surprised if he got to be a nuisance again as the weather cools down. Again, I’ve seen how his owners interact with him and they encourage him to be the way he is. Even if they didn’t, it does seem like male dogs are noisier. The honker’s dogs are female and they rarely bark. Whiskey barked all the time in Auburn but Brandy didn’t. So if we ever get a dog, a male is definitely out of the question. I suppose the breed has something to do with it too. I still think it would be nice to have a dog because I don’t know that I would want another rat after Tinkerbella because I just can’t imagine getting two in a row this wonderful.

Watched a movie called Nowhere and it was awesome! Now I’m looking for a new series without the foreign accents. I don’t mind foreign shows with American voiceovers as much but it’s still nice to have something set in the US with American actors.

I don’t know if I’m imagining it or not but I swear my armpits stubble feels softer and thinner after my first flashing yesterday. Hard to believe it could make a difference after just one session, though. I have a few chin hairs and even those feel softer and thinner. I need to do a better job shaving next time so that the follicle is better exposed to the light. After that, I don’t have to shave before I flash. Love the sunglasses that came with it, too.