Happy 31st anniversary to us! My schedule is in a place where it makes it hard to do much, and we don't have a lot of extra money, so we decided to splurge on Burger King. Because we seldom do it, it makes it all the more special, even if our bodies don't agree with it nearly as much as 30 years ago. As older people, we can't quite eat as much, especially him since he's 8 years older. We were looking at an ad for a triple burger while we were waiting for food, and I commented on the fact that neither of us could eat that much now. He said he could have 30 years ago. True, and I could have come close too during perimenopause or the day before periods, lol.

I love that every day I can think of something to say in my journal, even if it's mostly the same old mundane things. I'm glad I'm not like I've gotten to be with my creative writing when it comes to my journal.

My coloring book bundle arrived today, and while it makes for a fun variety, it wasn't quite what I expected. I thought every book would have a different theme, but as you can see, I got four mandalas, four animals, and two with patterns that are mostly floral. Also, the pages are perforated, and they're quite thin. Because some of the images are printed back to back, if you use markers, they'll bleed through. I love how some of the illustrations have colored backgrounds. I was a little surprised that some are partially colored, but I'm okay with that since it wasn’t a lot.

Now, for my surprising news: I've actually had four days of energy in a week! Usually, I'm lucky if I get that in an entire month. I asked Tom if he thought it was mostly the CPAP or the levo ramping up in my system, and he thinks it's mostly the CPAP. I'm inclined to agree! I've had way worse numbers than I last got, and didn't always have such epic fatigue. The med is accumulating a bit much in my system, though, and I do have to skip tomorrow's dose. My heart wasn't too racy today, but it was beating hard, and I was warm and feeling wound up enough to take half a clonazepam. Plus, it can disrupt sleep.

Anyway, I switched to the spare nasal pillow and it sealed beautifully, just like when the first one was new. Amazingly, I had no leaks. But my sleep did get broken up, making it even more amazing that I had energy today, or now, yesterday. It took me over an hour to fall back asleep, but it was way too early to get up and would have put my appointment at risk, so I stayed in bed for a total of 8 hours like I try to do. Not taking any antihistamines before bed, shutting the devices down, and not sleeping with the phone in the same room does seem to be helping as well. Anyway, I only had a couple of leaks escape my mouth after I fell back asleep as I had peeled off the tape. This mask is still wrong for me, even if it's the most comfortable. Now I know that not only does it leak, but it doesn't last the 6 months most other masks last, and that would be pretty expensive, having to get a new one every month.

Another popular journal prompt seems to be: What do you consider worth forgiving? Well, even though I wouldn't take them back into my life or associate with them in any way, I can usually forgive the types of things that don't have a major impact on me. It's when people know damn well what they're doing and intend to inflict verbal, emotional, physical, or financial harm that I could never forgive, even if I wanted to. Even Andy’s forgivable, because technically there’s nothing to forgive in the first place. He and I simply have personalities that clash.