Not feeling good at all right now. I'm pissed, tired, and stressed out. I'm pissed at Google for removing the editing tool on Blogger without even telling people and making us waste hours digging through code thinking something was broken, only to find out they yanked the damn feature. My guess? They're slowly trying to phase out Blogger and drive people off by taking away handy tools. Editing old posts is now a total pain in the ass unless I want to scroll through forever or try a keyword search, which doesn’t always work.

Just when I started to feel hopeful that I might not have chronic fatigue, I get slammed with fatigue again. Yesterday I was tired because I stayed up way too long, but I’m still exhausted now. Yes, I took the mask off a few hours before getting up, but still—I shouldn’t feel this tired. 

And now the power outages are happening more often. Yesterday it was out for an hour, and then it flickered off and on around 2:00 AM. No storms were happening at either time, so who knows? There are so many downsides to living here, but with no money or energy to move, I guess this is it. Our "forever home."

This June has been stormier than I’ve ever seen. It's daily now—sometimes multiple times a day—and it’s stressing me the hell out because I keep worrying that it’s going to wake me up and leave me even more exhausted before my Monday appointment. A storm’s rolling in again right now. Tom got woken up last night, but he was fine because he doesn’t have such fatigue. 

Even though I’ve basically given up hope of ever getting my energy back in any lasting way, I do hope my appointment lifts some of this stress off me.

When the power was out, I used the EMF reader on Jade again and got nothing. Now I’m starting to doubt she’s haunted after all. Still doesn't explain why there was no EMF when I moved her and then tested the spot she was in earlier, but once again, I’m doubting the afterlife or reincarnation. Multiple universes…maybe. This means I might not bother getting a supposedly haunted little blonde doll from Etsy like I was planning. I’ll do another test on Jade in her old spot and decide after that.