It’s been a fun and productive day so far, but first I will cover what’s got me both hurt and annoyed. Nane. Nane had the time to add friends and to remove the photos I placed on her wall but not to say hello. Just a quick, simple little goddamn hello. It didn’t have to be much if she was busy, but she could have at least said hello or poked me or done something.

So I guess that once again I got the wrong idea and had her figured all wrong. At first I thought she didn’t care, but then I found that she did. Or at least seemed to anyway. Yet just when I thought she may truly care after all, I now find that she doesn’t. I simply can’t believe she’s just too busy to keep in touch and that she’s not ignoring me for some reason. It’s sad too, and makes no sense. I survived something I didn’t think I would survive. I thought she’d be all happy and excited for me and our newfound good fortune regardless of how short-lived it may end up being, and that she’d want to fill me in on her trip, but apparently not. I just don’t get it, though. She said she hoped I’d be around when she got back. Well here I am and she’s been back for weeks now. I made it through, I’m here, I’m alive, but where the hell is she?

I’m closer than ever to dumping her. Not hearing regularly from someone you don’t have a thing for and that you’re not close to in any kind of a special way is one thing, but this is different. I always considered our friendship different than my friendship with most others like Kim and Alison. They’re strictly friends. Nane and I weren’t despite the fact that we’ve never met, never will meet, and are both with someone.

I left her one last message asking what was up. I never expected her to write as much as I do. I know most people don’t like to write. But a month or two in between messages is stretching it a bit. Not writing regularly is fine, making me feel ignored is not. That’s not just it, though; it’s the deleting of the photos and not taking the time to at least say she’s alive and well and is glad things are better for us that’s got me upset. Maybe she really is superficial just like someone suggested she is. Oberflächlich.

Onto better things. We went to Mel’s Diner and I got the same grilled pork chops I got the last time only they weren’t as good. Too tough and too salty. The meat around the bones was ok and less dry so I ate mostly that. The scrambled eggs and fried potatoes with green onions were great, though.

We also picked up the mail and did some grocery shopping.

That person finally paid for the dolls they won. Just in time too, or else they’d have gotten in trouble with eBay.

The propane guy didn’t get here till 6pm yesterday because he likes his tank to be close to empty because of the steep hills around here. It’s nice to be able to take another step out of poverty like that by being able to have it filled!

No sawing yesterday and not much Jesse either. I heard him 5 times, but not for long periods. He came and went in the truck, then on the motorcycle, and then I heard the ATV for a few seconds.

Later…

What a day it’s turned out to be with this damn computer! Ah, the incompatibility nightmares I go through!

First of all, I inserted pictures between paragraphs in my last entry and asked some people if they thought it was overkill and if I should go back to just 1 or 2 pics per post or what. Well, Alison said she thought it was a bit much and that it took away from the post. I went back and looked at my previous post after a while and I agree with her. It’s all photos and hardly any text. So back to 1-2 pics it is. I’ll still leave the previous entry intact and still welcome people’s opinions in the meantime.

After dealing with a different kind of backache than what I woke up with which quickly went away and that came on out of the blue for no apparent reason, the computer headaches began. It started when I got sick of Firefox crashing and decided to give Chrome a try. But Chrome doesn’t support the Yahoo! toolbar. So I then went to upgrade to the latest version of Firefox since I’m not a fan of IE. Next, I discovered that not only did the toolbar not work correctly for some reason there, but my old, free version of Robo’s form filler isn’t supported there either. So I rolled back to my old FF version and now everything’s a mess. I didn’t have everything I had on my toolbar bookmarked, so I tried to remember most of the important sites and made a doc file of all my sites and the usernames, emails, and passwords associated with them. I hadn’t told FF to remember them all, so now I’ve got a list and I don’t have to go and reset PWs and shit like that.

Then I find my recorder isn’t working and we realized this was because we reactivated my MagicJack phone a few hours earlier. The stupid computer recognizes both as sound devices and gets confused, so we had to tweak some settings there.

Tomorrow I’m going to look for another form filler as Robo’s not as important as it used to be since I’m not sweeping anymore, then I’ll jump back up to the latest FF version to be safer from hackers.

I was glad to be able to get the same number I had before as it’s easy to remember. This thing may have a lag, but I like that it’s a real phone and that Tom and I can both talk to my folks if we want. I don’t have to worry about minutes, long-distance fees, or having to go outside for better reception either. If you’re a friend of mine and you’d like the number and don’t already have it, just ask.

Believe it or not, I got absolutely no sweet treats at the grocery store this morning. I usually get them once or twice a week, but I simply don’t crave them on this high-protein diet. It’s a pity, though, to have cut out sweets, switched to a 0-calorie coffee creamer and worked out regularly just to still be fat. :(