Alison emailed a letter to the police chief at the troll’s local PD. :) I’m proud of her! And so the ball is rolling, but where it ends up remains to be seen. Gotta admit my buddy’s got more guts than I do. I wish I could say otherwise but I have no faith in the system or those running it. One decade and two states ago I got sick of their abuse of authority and their lies, and therefore I lost my ability to trust in the system altogether. Because of it, I let an awful lot of shit happen to me. I guess I also didn’t want to appear as vengeful as some others have been. You hear about double standards and people’s civil rights being violated but you never expect it to happen to you. You never think you’ll be told a certain problem is “over” just to find it’s not. You never expect to be promised a year of probation - not that you even deserve a minute of it for words on paper you never forced anyone to read - only to end up wishing that was all you got. You never expect to “go down” for what you’re led to believe are journal excerpts you wrote (perhaps with some alterations on their part), that you later learn was really for a letter you never sent. You never expect a sentence fit for a wife-beater. You never expect those who are supposed to uphold the law to tweak and break the terms of your probation at will all the while knowing that your own ass will be back in the slammer if you so much as stray a millimeter from those precious rules and that the honesty and integrity of the “victims” who the actual perps were were never once questioned.

But I have vowed to move on and put these people and these events in the past where they belong. If they want to hang onto their own hate and obsession – fine, they’re welcome to do so and that’s their problem if they can’t get over it, wherever they may be these days. I’m only making a point as to why it’s so hard to trust the system.

I also don’t believe people should waste the time of the police, corrupt or honest, unless someone’s actually done something and not just because of what they might have said. Well, the troll I’m referring to has started to cross the “spoken” boundaries.

Later…

Took a two-hour nap but am not really sure if I fell asleep. Did I?

Tom just got up and will be gone in a couple of hours, leaving me feeling once again like a fish in a bowl who hopes no one will try to stick a net in and fish out. I wasn’t going to do certain activities like play music that could be heard outside in case anyone came down to try to arrest me, but that would really be letting them control me. So I refuse to be as quiet as a mouse and do things at certain times. If they come down here I’m not opening the door whether they hear me in here or not. I can’t stop them from making Jesse open the door, but I’m not going to make their “job” any easier for them.

I keep telling myself they have nothing on me and they couldn’t possibly arrest or sue me. But what if they framed me or I wrote something I think is legal that’s really not? Or what if I don’t get in trouble for anything I said about the freeloaders but for the pigs instead? They spited Amanda Knox when she had less than kind words to say about the way they mistreated her. Ok, so this may not be Italy and I may not have said any of them hit me, but I did speak of being set up even if I didn’t use full names. Cops are sensitive and if any of them have a guilty conscience or something to hide, then a certain black pig just may try to pull something on me. It just won’t win this time. I would literally kill myself first same as I would have killed myself to escape the streets like I thought I was going to have to do and was prepared to do. 2003 was the last time anyone would ever treat me like a child or that I would lose a moment’s freedom or a single penny to the sick black bitch.