How could I forget to mention that as soon as I created the Justin account on Ask to try to pull Molly’s attention away from me, Kim immediately began impersonating Molly, and then claimed to be “Janice.” Kim’s too obvious, though, so I could tell it was her. Wonder who she’s impersonated me to? There’s really no end to who she’ll pretend to be and she obviously wants to be anybody but herself. When Molly came out, non-anonymously, and insisted she hadn’t messaged “Justin” and that it was Kim pretending to be her, it was the first time I actually believed something the loon said. Regardless, I’m sick of Justin so I’m giving him a break for a while. I’m sure they’ll be checking regularly, though, to see if he’s back, LOL, so at least I’ve given them somewhat of a diversion.

Andy said what I figured he’d say – that Tammy should be ashamed of herself for wanting to get revenge on her own kid. Also, if she could hurt her own kid, she could hurt me again. He said he wouldn’t burn the bridge, but would also let her do the contacting. That way she’ll see I’m not into the “relationship” much and will eventually fade away. That’s just the problem, though. She’d never just fade away. Tammy doesn’t fade. You’re pretty much either in her life or you’re not, and if you are, it’s either in a positive way or in a way you won’t like at all. I’m just glad our parents are gone so I don’t have to deal with them getting caught up in the middle of things and taking sides should any future shit come down.

I totally agree, though, that if she could hurt Lisa, she could hurt me. Getting on her bad side would certainly cause me an awful lot of headaches I simply don’t need. Tammy isn’t one to let you ignore her that easily. So I’ll keep it friendly unless she gives me a good reason to make her inevitable cyberbullying worth it. Unfortunately, though, unlike Kim and Molly, she has 2 of our 3 phone numbers and our address. We no longer have a setup that would cost us money to have to go in and delete any unwanted calls, but I’m not sure I’m comfortable with her having all this info. She’s the type that would call my local cops and say I threatened her if she were pissed enough. Even if I didn’t do anything she could legally get me with in the end, who needs the hassles of the pigs coming to my door and me having to explain to them that she’s just a vengeful bitch, just ignore her and pay no attention to her hogwash, etc.?

When I first became rather sociable online, dealing with and observing vengeful, vindictive, spiteful, immature people hell-bent on revenge and stalking, as if they were still in high school or something, wasn’t part of the plan. I’m both saddened and appalled by all the so-called adults out there who feel they have nothing better to do than “get” people who have pissed them off. Unless someone does something huge to them – and I mean HUGE – why is it so damn hard for people to just let go of and ignore others if they’re not getting along or they don’t like each other? There’s a difference between revenge and justice, and unless you’ve got a guilty conscience, please don’t automatically assume I’m talking about any one person specifically. I’m talking about people in general that I have observed on a regular basis.

I may not know it all, nor do I know every detail of every situation, but spiting someone for saying something you didn’t want to hear is revenge. Having someone arrested and tried for burning your house down or trying to kill you is justice. The system may often be unjust, but I would certainly recommend giving it a try and hoping for the best IF something big was done to you.

Yet I see 60-year-olds wanting to spite others for petty shit and I am literally embarrassed as hell for them. I am mostly a silent observer for a few reasons. I don’t like to get involved in other people’s problems that don’t concern or pertain to me in any way, and I also find following blogs regularly rather frustrating because the few people that have actually been interesting enough to hook my interest (yes, I’m hard to please and impress) don’t seem to stick with it for long or they change accounts. So I don’t always see all that goes on and am not always up to date on matters.

What I have seen is a prime reminder of how much low self-esteem and a lack of self-respect are out there. That one would waste time following and harassing those that can’t stand them and that they supposedly dislike as well, goes to show just how little they must value themselves.

It’s ok to be angry and to write about your feelings, even if it’s in a public blog. But it’s not ok to act like a high school kid and stalk, follow and seek revenge on others all the while you try to drag others into it. Sweat the big things, folks, not the little things, for it’s only going to make you look small, weak, childish and dumb in the eyes of others. And when we spend so much energy sweating every little thing we don’t like or agree with, we find we don’t have the energy left for the positive things worth focusing on in life.

Right or wrong, I’m sure people will continue to spite themselves and make themselves look bad while trying to get at others. I may not be perfect myself, but it still sickens me to see so much of this shit going on. It’s not always easy to ignore those you don’t like cuz sometimes they just don’t want to let us have the luxury of ignoring them, but you don’t have to lower yourself to their level either.

Years ago I used to be a very vengeful person myself and was a very miserable and immature person. As I said, I’m not perfect, but upon growing up and gaining maturity and self-respect, I see just how silly and childish I truly was when I look back on my old self. I try not to judge other people and their ways, but some things are just plain wrong by any normal, reasonable set of standards. But just like I’m not going to suddenly believe God is good just because one may want me to or tell me to, you can’t “talk” someone into being a better person. I know that. Only they can do that IF they want to.

Someone once asked if I’d bash a cyber friend of mine I’ve been super close with (not Nane) for years if our friendship ended. No, I wouldn’t because if our friendship ever ended (and I sure hope it doesn’t and highly doubt it will, though people have tried to come between us) she’s much too intelligent and mature to resort to the kind of kiddy crap drama Kim has resorted to which would be the only reason I’d have anything bad to say about her. Although she may be bummed out about it, I’m sure she would simply accept that our friendship was over and focus her attention on positive things and those who are still in her life in a positive way. So the furthest I would go would be to simply say that our friendship ended and I may or may not say why.

However, as soon as you’ve crossed the line into cyberbullying like Kim has, then I have no qualms about hurting your feelings or angering you with something I may have to say about you. How you take it is up to you and I’m not going to care anymore at that point.

As for me personally, I don’t care if someone wrote in their blog that I was a mass murderer and used my full name because words cannot hurt me. Remember the old adage: Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me.

Well, for the most part, that’s true! Throw sticks and stones my way, however, and then you’ve taken things to a whole new level. I won’t let myself be afraid to fight back like I used to be and I won’t care how “high up” in society you may be or what your status, title or friends are like.

Information is knowledge, and with knowledge comes potential trouble for those of us who may not deserve it. Therefore, I’m picky about what sensitive info I give to those who have abused it in the past or that I don’t feel has changed or that I can trust. Yeah, folks, sometimes the people who are supposed to love or at least care for us the most will be the first to throw us to the wolves if we piss them off.

Not sure how much longer I’ll disallow anonymous questions on Ask. I blocked them due to the troll’s same old lame shit, but I feel controlled this way and I miss the fun of anonymous questions other than those from the same damn two crazy chicks that just can’t seem to get enough of me. But in allowing for anonymous comments I then give THEM the control. So… I think I’ll keep things the way they are for a while.

Later…

Why does everyone want me to call them all of a sudden??? I love my friends and family but I am NOT a phone person. Can you get that? Please quit trying to make me something I’m not and to get me to do something I have no desire to do when it’s so much more convenient to keep in touch online. You’re welcome to leave me voice messages, but I’m a little too busy (even if I was a phone person) to take an hour or two out of my hectic schedule every few days to chat.

I’ll catch up on calls if my poor husband can ever get enough free time to set up our hotspot so I can use the MagicJack. Meanwhile, whether one has money or not, it’s foolish to spend money on minutes for the cell when I can just use my computer phone once we get it up to speed which only costs just $20 a year. Really, folks, if it’s not an emergency, why would I want to burn up minutes just to discuss the same things that can be discussed online? Even for free it’s pretty pointless unless you have a ton of stuff to say.

Speaking of friends and family, I had a dream that a friend was teaching me self-defense, only I never got the chance for any “defense,” LOL. I don’t think she’d want me to mention the other dreams, with or without her name mentioned.

I had what classifies as a total nightmare when I dreamt of having to go live with my sister, hahaha. That would have to mean Tom and I were broker than broke. Plus my sister and I are still too different. Our personalities and interests differ to the point that we’d probably clash like hell. The strange part was that she was calling one of her kids Melanie.

Why all the wet dreams lately, some of which are with characters from past books of mine? I got it on with an Italian hottie a few nights ago, and last night it was a Latina hottie.

I’m doing laundry now (the hose just needed to be tightened) and enjoying the peace until Jesse or his mutts steal it.

Tom and I are amazed at how much more effective a Waterpik is compared to flossing. We were skeptical at first but even on lower pressure settings it’s kicking out shit from between our teeth we didn’t even know was there. Tom said it was disgusting, LOL, to learn he had all that stuff in his mouth when he didn’t even feel like he had anything there. He did know that he had a build-up of tartar on his lower teeth, however, and says even that’s been getting knocked off little by little.