Loving and hating this rainy weather we’re having! It’s a nice change for variety’s sake, and it keeps Jesse off the Harley and people away from the chainsaws. But I still hate being cold even if it’s better for sleeping and running. Yet that’s how it is half of the year here. It’s either hot and dry or it’s cold and wet.

My sister said it was ok to write about her and her family, so… I’m looking forward to being spoiled all over again with whatever goodies she’s sending tomorrow.

I was surprised she had no idea who Anna and Harry were. Then again, she was in Texas when I was 16. As she said in the comment section, she’d have come for me if she’d known what was going on and wasn’t so fucked up herself from our wonderful mother. Although she feels bad, it wasn’t her fault. She was a victim too, so there really wasn’t anything she could do.

I had to laugh when picturing her, Mark, Becky and Sarah laughing and dancing around the kitchen with Dad’s urn while cooking potato latkes like she said, hahaha. Hey, don’t drop the guy, Mark! He needs to stand guard with a nail-studded bat should his wife try to come and haunt us.

I feel much better today, though I am still saddened over the loss of Anna and my chance to tell her one last time how much I loved her for caring about me the way she did when no one else would. Tammy agreed that any woman who would love me when my own parents wouldn’t had to be wonderful. Well, let’s just say that should my bio mom and my “heart” mom be waiting for me at the Tunnel of Light when I die, it’s my heart mom’s hand I will be taking.

I’m also still wondering just what the hell was up with my sudden thoughts and memories of her a couple of days ago and my need to find her. Was it just a coincidence? My psychic side sensing something was up? Or was it really Anna herself come to say goodbye from the other side? Had she died 5 years ago I’d have been more likely to think it was a coincidence, but when I learned she died two months ago, I didn’t know what to think.

So why am I two days late for my period? No, I can’t be knocked up. Fortunately, I’m too old. I hope this is a sign of menopause setting in, but I doubt it. I’m not that old yet.

Later…

I need to start keeping better notes, as sometimes not even I can understand my own notes. It took me a minute to realize that “blank” was “blanket,” but yeah, that’s one of the things I got at Target yesterday.

The blanket is so much softer than our plain cream-colored blanket and has a rose print with a pink satiny ruffle for trim. It’s a little heavier than I realized. It’s like two blankets in one, and I’m both glad and not so glad I got it. Heavier blankets and comforters aren’t good for beds with memory foam toppers, but it’s pretty and the other comforters are old. One of them is a hideous dark green plaid design my parents sent me. I’ll definitely need something lighter in the summer, though.

I got my lifelike baby doll a pack of onesies in pale pink, pink, purple, orange and green. It makes her look even more realistic because it covers both her shoulder joints and her old faded diaper.

I got a pair of rainbow panties with a zebra print, a headband with pink gems, glitter polish with pink hearts, beeswax lip balm, 6 Champion C9 girls’ large sports bras in assorted colors, and a goldish-colored cross-body purse. It’s great no longer having to carry handbags and to be hands-free when out and about. Now I just have to get the proper glasses so I can see where I’m going.

Curious about their new grocery section we checked it out and I found the biggest green grapes I’ve ever seen in my life. I also got some seafood goodies – bacon-wrapped scallops and crab cakes. Nothing I buy on a regular basis, so it was a real treat.

Got some fruity teas at another store and find the cherry and blueberry to be too tart. The peach is great, though. Haven’t tried the mixed berries or blackberry yet.