18 times? 18 times Nane’s gone to Turkey in the last 4 years, so I read on her wall?! What the hell was she thinking??? Ah, but now she’s thinking she needs a change. She just needs to figure out what kind of change. Why doesn’t she just come here? Jim and Tom could entertain the rat. She and I could entertain each other in the bedroom. :)

No offense to any TR lovers out there but I just don’t get why in the world she would want to go there and eventually live there. From what I’ve seen and heard, TR is filthy and overcrowded. It’s also a Muslim nation, which usually means a lot of hate for gays, Jews, women and children. The beaches suck, too. The water looks somewhat nice, but the beaches aren’t even real beaches. You know, with fine sand and things like that? Instead, it seems too rocky and full of pebbles that I would think would hurt one’s feet to walk on. Furthermore, Iran and Iraq are always threatening to take their rage on Israel out on them. So why would anyone want to endanger themselves by going there?

I did end up hearing from Christiane after all. Well, she responded to my wall post, though I highly doubt she reads any of my notes. Been wondering if Nane, who seems to be spending more and more time on Facebook lately, has been reading them, though. That’s because after I posted that rant about her being so selfish, she posted some wall photos with sayings on them that suggested she may be reading them like, “Never let them steal your joy.” And, “If you had a friend that talked to you like you sometimes talk to yourself, how long would you be their friend?” LOL, I was happy to share them on my wall too. :) Doesn’t she know I can see her shit? LOL, I appreciate the goodies she posts, though I’m kind of surprised. With or without her dumped ex-cyber GF in the picture, I’m surprised she’s not more private. Then again, she doesn’t exactly bare it all. I know she has a lot more pictures than what you can see from the outside looking in. That’s okay, one former stripper baring it all is enough. :)

I’m trying to remember if she posted publicly before she dumped me. I can’t remember for sure, but I don’t think she did. Like I said, I can’t swear to it. I don’t usually pay attention to who posts what and for whom because I just don’t care. All I care about is what I post and who sees it and so I only pay attention and think of myself. Yay, I can be selfish too, after all!

Her wall photos were all in English. I don’t think Nane realizes just how much German I’ve learned simply because we never bothered to speak in it because she is fluent in English (even though she pretended not to be in the end) and so she would not know. I’m far from fluent, but I know enough to get the gist of what I read and I could get my point across if I had to. It may be grammatically incorrect and some sentences may have some missing words, but you’d get the point.

But is she really reading my notes? Hmm… my first instinct is to say no, she’s not. Why would you want to read the journal of someone you dumped? But we all seem to keep tabs on either exes or people we don’t like. I read most of Molly’s so-called journal, but you can bet it’s not because I like her in any way. I do it because it’s so crazy that it’s funny. I also would like to know about it if I or anyone else is threatened. I don’t think Mommy got Alison’s message yet after all. I thought she did cuz Molly deleted both her blogs but she does that every few days anyway when she realizes just how bad it makes her look.

The only thing I read in her latest cries of misery and rejection from those that have either abused her or that she stalks, is that she just may end up in that group home after all. But would they keep her offline? Or at least limit her time and supervise where she goes and what she does?

As sad and as surprising as it may sound, a small part of me can relate to the nutty troll. I know how hard it can be to let go. Only I try to respect people’s wishes and let them be. I may peek in on them, but I don’t create one account after another to friend, message, comment and hound them from quicker than they can block them. Still, I know the sadness and anger that comes from being dumped, and Nane sure picked the worst timing, regardless of how many times she told me I was attractive, funny, and a talented writer.

I wish I were “meaner” and a bigger bitch than I can be at times with a much colder heart. I don’t have to ask myself if I would be dumb enough to be her friend again if she wanted to be. I know I would be. And I also know she would probably toy with me again and eventually she’d dump me again too, either for something I didn’t do or because I may hit another rough patch in life that she wouldn’t be strong enough to handle. But as they say, if you can’t handle someone at their worst, then you don’t deserve their best, do you?

Got a lot of wind and rain last night and we’re on for rain tonight and tomorrow supposedly, yet I don’t hear any falling. Then it’s back to being warm and sunny.

Alison’s pretending to be a troll like Molly from a bogus account on Thoughts, LOL, and Molly’s already responded to it. Don’t know yet if she found it on her own or if Aly lured her in, but I replied to Aly the troll’s cries for help and trying to understand why no one would talk to her with: Relax! It’s easy. All you have to do to be a successful troll is drive people batshit crazy with obsessive neediness and cries for “help.” If that doesn’t work, stalk them for years until they are forced to go underground and make up bogus accounts to escape your unwanted attention. Make up lies and stories about them, too. Get paranoid and delusional and make yourself believe they’re talking about you when in fact they’re not. This is because they really don’t give a shit about you enough to find you worth talking about in the first place. If this doesn’t work, drink a shitload of soda and gain 30 pounds. :)