A woman’s vid of her threatening and scaring the shit out of her toddler for losing her charger went viral. The shit got off on a bond set not much higher than mine was for a fucking letter. That’s so damn American, isn’t it? Thank God she didn’t actually hit the child. Then her bond would’ve been half of what it was. 

Relaxing after a 45-minute workout. Checked in on Facebook real quick. As usual, what little of my feed I glanced at was just friends commenting on people I don’t even know. 

First I went on a 27-minute walk and my average HR was 130. I felt great. Just a little dizzy once I got to the gates. I only saw one turkey along the way as the sun was setting. I was chilly at first cuz it was pretty windy out, but as expected, I warmed up once I hit the first curve (down the main outer street). 

Once home, I guzzled some water, downed a smoothie, then hit the Bowflex for 15 minutes or so. 

My wireless Bluetooth speaker with the color-changing LED lights arrived and the first time I used it after it was paired with Dot (Alexa’s now in the bedroom) it fits nicely on the treadmill tray and sounded fine. I got it so I could listen to audiobooks without having to blast the shit out of Alexa in order to hear it over the treadmill’s motor. The second time around it stuttered and I don’t know why. Not yet anyway. 

The original plan was to dump my Twitter account and create a whole new anonymous account no one knew about. But then I did a poll, out of curiosity, to see if anyone was reading my tweets that actually liked doing so. I asked if I should keep the account or no, and I got one vote saying yes. Yeah, but was it from a random person who just then stumbled about my account or someone I’ve actually talked to before? *shrugs* I guess it won’t hurt to keep the account either way. 

Aly was surprised and confused that I accepted her apology and forgave her, and I explained to her why. If I hadn’t been close to her, or had she done something huge like harmed Tom or burned our house down, that’d be different. I also can’t forgive those who can’t admit their mistakes and apologize. “I’m sorry” and “I love you” are said to be the hardest things for many people to say. But why? We ALL fuck up and we ALL love someone. 

So yes, I’ve forgiven her, but not her friends. I am content to move on as non-enemies with all of them rather than try to resume the friendship with Aly, especially now that I know she doesn’t like me. I like her; I just wouldn’t be able to trust her. I would also worry about every little thing I said to her, wondering if I was being too blunt and, without wanting to, hurting her feelings or angering her. 

It's just a bit sad that I had to find out what she and Kim really thought of me in the way that I did. I learned through Kim’s anonymous contact on Ask till I figured out it was her, and I learned just what Aly was thinking of me through her tweets. Now don't get me wrong. No one's obligated to like me. People can hate me all they want or at least not like me. I only ask that people tell me if that's the way they feel and not pretend otherwise till they either finally break the news to me or I catch them admitting it anonymously or elsewhere. I don’t bite. Don’t be so afraid of me. I’m not going to beat you up if you tell me you don’t like me or don’t want to be friends with me anymore. 

As I also told her, she’s not a bad person. She just has some flaws just like the rest of us. :)