Lowe’s could guarantee a Tuesday delivery on that LG washer, but not in the afternoon (seeing  O in the morning). Best Buy can, though, on a Maytag washer that’s a little bigger and costlier, but its extra features and extended warranty were worth the extra $50. It’s a $750 “sidewinder.” 

Sure enough, not a word from Tammy about my lab results. Not much to really say about that, though. I’m going to hold off for now on statins as my numbers aren’t dangerously high, ask about perimenopause/sleep apnea testing, and get refills on my thyroid meds. 

LOL, Aly and Kim moved their stories off Prosebox and Aly tweeted how “good it felt to officially cut ties with Prosebox and she’s never looking back.” 

Haha, Miss Melodramatic makes it sound like Prosebox was a prison sentence of sorts she was forced into and finally escaped. 

She says there are so many other better blogging sites out there. Well, I wouldn’t go so far as to say there are “so many” that are better, but there are better sites, yes. What I like best about Prosebox is that I can have multiple “books.” But Prosebox lacks features that most other sites have and that would be cool to have, like customizing backgrounds with pictures of our choice rather than a few boring pre-selected options. It would also be nice if it had a search feature. 

I don’t like the promises of upgrades that never come and I liked it better when you had arrows up top to scroll through entries. I also liked having drafts be in the book they were meant for rather than all thrown together. 

With Prosebox you also have to scroll through pages and pages to get to older entries on books with many entries, but on sites like Blogger, which would be the site I’d choose if I could only blog in one place, you can pick the year and the month within that year in a second. 

Still, I do love Prosebox even though I may change my mind and decide to leave someday. 

I know I’m probably being unwise and immature by continuing to read her tweets, but perhaps I do it because some are just so ridiculous that they’re funny. Ever stumble onto a bad movie that’s so damn bad that you can’t stop watching it BECAUSE it’s so bad? Well, I guess Aly’s just really that bad. ;) 

Another interesting tweet she made to Kim was that it was “hard to be totally happy, you know why, but I’m free of that.” 

Let me guess… that has something to do with me? She is the one, after all, who “freed” herself of me by dumping me. I just have yet to get why. I’m usually pretty honest with myself and good at looking back and seeing where I messed up with life or people in general. Things I should’ve said or done differently or maybe that I shouldn’t have said or done at all. But I honestly can’t see what it was I did, other than not be crazy enough for her, to deserve being dumped. She did mention negativity, but what’s “negative?” Not having the time or the desire to text back and forth with her every single day? Being honest? If a doctor tells her patient they have an illness or a disease, is that being “negative?” Or is that just being honest? 

She taught me a HUGE HUGE lesson, though, and that’s that anybody can appear to care about us that thinks we’re nothing but shit. I almost let go of everyone else left in my circle so I wouldn’t have to suffer the pain and frustration of finding out someone else has been thinking the same false and horrible things about me that I thought would always, always be a special part of my life. But instead, I refuse to punish the innocent. If they emerge, well, there’s not much I can do about that. But I can close the door to future friends. 

Now the question is what to do from here. Some have suggested that I keep living my life as I normally live it, while others suggest backing off of social media and privatizing as much as I can. 

Hmm… but I have no idea if they’re reading me or not. Kim did mention my “peak hours.” How would she know what those were unless one of them or both of them were keeping an eye on me? 

But there are never any blog views from Stafford Springs or Papillion or tweets in regard to anything I say. Then again, the tweets about her dietician encouraging her to keep as active as possible, then mentioning moving stories from Prosebox right after I publicly said she got kicked off for bashing me (she didn’t, though) and probably cheated on her step count do seem a bit coincidental. 

And how would I “hide” if I chose to so they couldn’t know my hours? The only sites I use right now are Prosebox, Blogger, Pinterest, OLS and Facebook. I could go FO on Prosebox, queue my Blogger posts to post at the same time every day and privatize this month’s board on Pinterest. To my knowledge, no one outside my circle can see when I’m on OLS or Facebook. So unless I’m missing anything, that’d throw them off my schedule, which changes regularly enough. 

But would it be worth doing all this? I always try to be as selfish as I can, so to speak, and live my life for myself. That means using what sites I want to use and how/when I want to use them. So for now I think I’ll carry on as usual, but still haven’t decided if I’m going to reactivate my Twitter account. If I do it will be just to express my thoughts and experiences; not to contact or communicate with anyone.