Slept ok, though I don’t know if I had a massive dizzy spell in my sleep or if I was dreaming. Real or not, I seemed to be fighting for balance, unsure of which way was up or down. I definitely had dreams of a few people from the past I don’t care to remember – Aly, Paula and Barbara. 

I was at Aly’s house and had to be there for some reason that was beyond our control. First she got pissed at me for turning the volume up too high on her laptop, then she got pissed when I accidentally said something her father overheard that she didn’t want him to know. 

Paula was texting me and enclosed a quick video clip of some football game. This was something I knew her to be into, and while I didn’t care for that particular sport, I was surprised she was in touch with me. 

Barbara wrote me a letter by hand, but I don’t know what it said. It didn’t seem to say anything bad, though. 

We’re finally getting back into the 80s and I hope this is finally it and that summer is finally here to stay. Summer’s been teasing us big time this year, with unusually cool/wet weather that I’m totally sick of. I want to be running around barefoot in shorts and tanks, not bundled up in robes and slippers. 

I LOVE being back to being anxiety-free! I only feel a little bit on Monday mornings as he’s leaving for work. I MUST do what I can to keep it this way! I can’t take any more levothyroxine and I can’t take anything new other than some form of natural hormone therapy remedy. I just can’t risk inviting that God-awful anxiety back all over again. I just can’t do that to myself and put myself through possible torture all over again. My thyroid’s just ever so barely out of the normal range, and I can’t believe my arteries could be that plaqued up this young. I just want to focus on the peri when I see the doctor next Wednesday. 

How stupid can I be? Of course I can test to see if Kim's reading my blog! All I have to do is mention one of her fan accounts in a post. I just edited a handle into tonight’s entry. If she sees it when she gets up/online, the link will change. I never knew if she was avoiding my blog due to its tracker, or if she was getting around the tracker somehow. Now I’ll know and can stop wondering. 

Anyway, I slept 8 hours, took a nap, and I’m still tired. Ugh.