So I'm exhausted, as I expected to be, because I knew that yesterday was the limit “allowed” as far as energy goes. So even though I'm gonna try to fight it with Clonazepam before bed, I'm likely gonna be exhausted for the next few days before I slowly catch back up again, and back and forth. I know how it works now. First, I woke up for no apparent reason, and then my fat arm fell asleep. I might have been OK if it were just those things, but 3 or 4 times, my nose woke me up because the left side swelled up. At 5:30, I took Zyrtec, although it didn't help. Even elevating myself only helped so much because it's not literally fluid, but the nose swelling shut.

After my appointment, I'm going to have to hope to hell I can switch to the oral mask. Otherwise, my nose is going to continue to wake me up once or twice a week, no matter what kind of antihistamine I do or don't take. I don't know why this has been happening. I never used to have this problem. I figured Tink wouldn't or couldn't help. This is a near lifelong sleep curse. The only thing that changes at times is what wakes me up.

The more research I do and the more I think about it, I don't need shots. I didn't need them in Massachusetts. I didn't need them in Arizona. No, I need a nasal surgery. When allergies are a true problem for me, that includes congestion and sneezing, particularly sneezing. No, I'm not looking forward to the hassles or the recovery, but if it's going to help me in the end, until whatever is cursing my sleep can figure out what to replace that problem with, then I'm ready. The question is how many fucking months before it actually happens? You know the wheels of medicine turn slowly unless it's an emergency.

The surgical team would have to be made aware of my sleep apnea. This is a 2-to-4-hour procedure, not an hour and a half.

Meanwhile, my birthday will be spent mostly stuck in bed. I'm not congested once I get up, I'm not sneezing, yet even nasal strips, antihistamines, steroid sprays, and nasal CPAPs aren't keeping my nose from blocking me awake every few days or so. It's mechanical, not allergies. A mouth guard would be totally worthless until my nose is fixed. If anything, I would have even more breathing issues that way. At least the CPAP is pumping some air up my nose.

Unlike yesterday, today, I have absolutely no traces of the throat tickle. Another thing I have no idea what's causing it to come and go. Life really is one big mystery after another.