I’ve decided to stop antihistamines for a while since they don’t seem to do me any good. I still have random stuffiness no matter what. It’s just hard to tell how much is allergies versus my nasal valves getting worse. I did sleep better, but of course, it wasn’t without waking up for no reason. I even got up to pee at one point, which is something I don’t do as much with the CPAP. I don’t remember any dreams, but after getting up to pee, it seemed to take me a little while to fall back asleep. I decided to hold off on trying the new mask again until after my ultrasound. I don’t need the additional stress and sleep disturbances.

Started off my day very tired, and now I’m not overly tired. I’m taking the gummies again, and they don’t seem to be bothering my stomach or making me anxious, so maybe it really was a case of levo accumulation. Because the fatigue has been bad again, I made sure to take a vitamin D today, along with a Brazil nut.

Tom attached one of his tablets to a wall in his office that displays one of my wallpaper files — mostly animal and nature pictures that change every minute. It would be nice if we had one out in the kitchen, too.

If I keep making decent money and we don’t have any major setbacks, after the upgrades, then I’ll want to upgrade and replace some other things. We could use new sheets and another decent towel set. Right now, I have a coverlet with a throw over it on the bed. I’d like to go back to using a cover sheet with some kind of light blanket. I just don’t want to use their cover sheets. Hmm... Should I dump them or save them for future rats? Haven't decided yet.

There was a 6-pack of wax cubes on sale for 8 bucks, so Tom got it for me as another birthday present since it will arrive on the 4th. The fragrances are Mint, Watermelon, Strawberry, Mango, Passion Fruit, and Pineapple.

A while back, I got a bunch of little metal pails, thinking they would be ideal for rinsing brushes when painting. Well, not only did I turn out to have no talent for painting, but they’re too small for rinsing brushes. So I decided, why not put wax cubes in them to place on the warmers? I don’t think I’ll get cubes very often, but glass Oui yogurts are great as candle wax warmer containers when I run out of pails.

I’m warming my Strawberry Snow cubes now, and later I’ll warm my Pistachio Mimosa in the bedroom. I’ve got my warm apple pie candle warming in the kitchen.

What’s really weird is my Glade multiscented candle. It’s got two layers. The top is pink, and the bottom is orange. When it melted all the way through on the warmer, it became all pink. Once it cooled, though, it went back to pink on top and orange on the bottom. How the hell it could do that is beyond me, but it’s pretty cool.

Building up some money from Yupp, I decided to get a couple more candles now that I don’t have to worry about not being able to smell weak ones. The warmer usually brings out the ones I can’t smell with a flame, as long as I turn up the light’s intensity. There’s only one that I can’t get much of a smell out of. So I got a hot cocoa candle along with a peanut butter-scented one. There are a few more scents I’ve been wanting to add to my collection that I'll eventually get, like banana, ylang ylang, regular jasmine, and cucumber. I think I even put a tobacco, leather, and firewood candle in the “save for later” section. And of course, I love WoodWick candles and the way they crackle. I light those with fire unless I can’t smell them and they need a boost from the warmer.

I asked Tom how he could be so sure that I’ll slowly get over this fatigue, and he pointed out to me that he felt so much better at 65 than he did at 60. But he was working, and he’s a man, so I still don’t know if I’ll ever beat this fatigue. I wish there was something I could take that could either give me more energy without side effects, or make me sleep more soundly, also without side effects. I'm now five years postmenopausal, so I can't believe it's connected to hormones.

If I had woken up to find another piece of bedding on the bathroom floor, or anywhere in here for that matter, I would have been 100 percent convinced that Tink was indeed sending signs and does go on somehow. But now I’m back to thinking, well, maybe we tracked the other pieces in after all. I found two pieces in the bathroom yesterday. After that, I vacuumed, and I haven’t seen anything since.

Contemplated deleting Arteaga for lack of contact. I asked Tom if he would delete or ignore deadbeats if he were into social media, and he said he would ignore. For now, I’ll ignore her, but I may eventually delete her. Why invite or accept invites from people you have no intention of interacting with? I certainly don’t expect to hear from her every day, and not even every week, but every few months or so would have been nice. To have sent her a message telling her my pet died and not even get a simple “I’m sorry” or “Thanks for the message” is kind of sad.

At the same time, I say kudos to those who can ignore people’s messages no matter what they say! If I could do that, I would be able to add Andy and ignore him. But I can’t sit back in good conscience and have him tell me something sad like that and not respond. Not unless I didn’t give a shit. Just because I don’t like a lot of his personality traits doesn’t mean I don’t give a shit. Liars, gossipers, and phonies are bad enough, but if there’s one thing I’m totally done with, it’s reaching out to those who don’t reach out to me or those who only reach out to me because they want something. Why is it that the crazier and/or the dumber someone is, the more loyal they are?